❤EVEN FOREVER DON'T SEEM LIKE LONG ENOUGH.

2009-01-05T01:04:00.002+08:00

Okay, basically. this blog is No longer in use.
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GOT IT ?
cheerios,
del.

2009-01-04T00:33:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people.
Went to Malacca early morning.
Shopping there.
So yeaps, I'm back.
Church class starts tmr.
Damnnnnnnn.
Okay, basically, i don't have anything to update about.
So yeahs.

To Fan;
Alright, whoever you are. I don't care okay.
I kindly let you spout your nonsensical comments in my tag board.
And i didn't ban your IP, nor did i erase your comments.
But this time, you've gone overboard.
Who are you to meddle in my affairs?
What makes you think i'm just replacing Ben with Igy.
Who the fuck are you to think that.
Please okay. I have my limits to tolerate your nonsense.
Maybe you've never been in love before,
so i forgive you for not knowing how it feels like.
So, let me tell you.
It wasn't easy letting go of someone.
But i still did.
Okay, And you think its so easy to like someone either?
Why don't you try it yourself.
Don't be dumb please.
Ben maybe someone i've liked in the past.
But thats already something i've decided to leave behind in the past.
Understand that fact.
You think you can replace someone so easily?
People you love aren't pets.
You can't buy an exact new one.
Sorry okay, the ones that are precious to me are irreplaceable.
I'm not like you.
I treasure them.
So don't come to th-clover-x3 to crap and bullshit.
When you don't even know anything about me and my life.
My life, nobody understands how sophisticated and complicated it is.
So save your bullshits alright.

Sorry Ben, sorry Igy.
I had to do this.

2009-01-03T00:02:00.003+08:00

This blog is gonna be deleted soon.
New year, new blog.
Anyway. School was alright.
Still can't believe Suganthi is our form teacher.
There goes my green socks.
Hahs.
After school went to NP room to prepare for CCA open house.
Which is next Saturday?
Yeaps. I can't wait for cheerleadinggggggggggg. :D
Tiring day today.
Was actually hesitating, whether to go for Project J or not.
But yeaps, i convinced myself to go.
I didn't regret going.
In fact, i was glad i went.
At least i know, He's alright.
I thank God.
Because
This is the best Christmas present He could ever give to me.
- To see Him again.

I'm sorry.

2009-01-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

At least, tell me you're okay.
Please.

2009-01-01T19:05:00.003+08:00

Did a stupid quiz.
Bored to death.

#01. Explain your relationship status :Emotionally attached. Hahs.
#02. Name a lyric from the last song you listened to : Cry- The Veronicas. ; " I'm breaking your heart, but i'm breaking apart."
#03. What did you wear today? : OBS shirt and FBT shorts.
#04. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses ?: Neither.
#05. How many windows are open on your computer ?: Three.
#06. What are you doing after this ? : Dinner? Hahs.
#07. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing ?; OBS ? Lol.
#08. Do you like To Cuddle ?: Yeaps, definately.
#09. Which one of your cousins is closest to you in age ?: Regina! 7 months apart.
#10. Do you like someone? What is the first letter of that person? : Nopes i love someone. It starts with a Capital " I " . Hahas!
#11. Do you like hugs? : Yeaps.
#12. Are you a loud person?: Hmm, lets see, maybe yes, maybe no.
#13. Look to your left, what do you see ?: My phone, Flu.
#14. What is one thing you would love to happen tomorrow?: To find myself dead. Hahs.
#15. Would your parents be mad if you come home smashed ?: Are you kidding? I'll be dead meat. #16. Have you ever had a crush on your siblings friend?: Hahas! Yeaps. In the past.
#17. Does it matter to you if your boyf/girlf smokes ?: It does, but as long as he quits, who cares ?
#18. Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life ?: Hahs. Maybe yes, maybe no.
#19. Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you ?: Nopes.
#20. Who was the last person you had a phone call longer than 7 minutes ?: Igy Prob.
#21. How often do you hold back from saying what you think ?: Hmm. I don't know.
#22. Last serious hug ?: Day honey went for his trip, or so i think.
#23. Would you ever dye your hair blonde ?: I'd rather brown.
#24. Is something bothering you ?: Yeaps. But i won't tell you what,
#25. Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes ?: Hahas. Are they ?
#26. Do you believe that you can change for someone ?: Yeaps.
#27. What time you woke up this morning ?: 10 plus 11am.
#28. Would you go back in time to change something ?: Yeap. Many things. Like my PSLE results
#29. Is it hard leaving people behind ?: Yeap. Definately. Try dying then you'll know.
#30. What are you excited for ?: How i know -.-
#31. Who was the last missed call from ?: Private number.
#32. What was the last thing you spent your money on ?: Green apple milkshake.
#33. Is there one song that reminds you of the whole summer ?: When you're gone.
#34. What are you doing right now?: Thinking. Hahs.
#35. Can you handle the truth ?: Nopes.
#36. How's your life lately ?: Like fcuking shit.
#37. When's the last time you did something you knew was wrong ?: Buy chocolates when i'm gaining weight.
#38. Do you hate being alone ?: Sometimes.
#39. Where were you last night ?: Where else, Home of course.
#40. Last non-alcoholic beverage consumed ?: Iced- Milo.
#41. Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them ?: Definately.
#42. When did you first get Myspace ?: Myspace is dumb i tell you .
#43. Are you drifting away from any friends ?: Maybe.
#44. What are you listening to ?: Yume No Tsubasa.
#45. What are you doing tonight ?: Pack my bags for school tmr.
#46. Does the last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you ?: Yeap, the dearest person in my life.
#47. Are you wearing socks ?: Crazy, of course not !
#48. Do you have anything in your pockets right now ?: Nopes.
#49. Who's your last text from ?: Stephanie.
#50. Are you comfortable with answering personal questions?: Been there, done that.
#51. Ever kiss someone who smokes ?: Been there, done that.
#52. Someone on your mind right now ?: Ain't it obvious ?
#53. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled ?: Nopes. Only a spendthrift.
#54. Who was the last person to sit on your bed?: Hmm. Flu, Hahas.
#55. Where were you at 2.02 this morning ?: Sleeping, what else -.-
#56. Did you go to sleep last night smiling ?: Nopes, worried.
#57. Anyone told you a secret this week ?: Yeaps.
#58. When was the last time you bought something ?: Yesterday.
#59. Do you play an instrument ?: Not really.
#60. What's your favourite number ?: 11

2009-01-01T18:39:00.003+08:00

Once again, Happy new year ! :D
Well, finally.
School's starting tomorrow.
I haven't started on any homework.
I'm so dead.
Gonna be stuck outside commence room.
Hahas.
But at least i can get my mind off things.
Bad way to get the new year started huh?
Hmm.
Serious year already.
Lucky no N' levels.
But yeah.
Mr tan's not our form teacher anymore.
YAY.
I hope Miss Goh is though.
HAHAS.
I don't know what to bring tomorrow man.
And yes. Can see BFF Debbi ! :D
Hope tomorrow no POA.
Arghh.
Wonder if Flu's coming with me tmr..
Lol.
Sometimes, i wonder.
What are you doing right now?
How are you?
Are you well ?
):

2009-01-01T01:14:00.002+08:00

Basically, went out to pack brunch.
Walked really slowly.
Went to that void-deck for awhile..
Went home, cook.
Blah..

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE :DD

2008-12-31T19:54:00.001+08:00

Why can't you look at me, and tell me you still love me ?

2008-12-31T19:46:00.002+08:00

What are you keeping from me ?
You're acting all weird.
You know it.
I'llbe there if anything happens.
No matter what.
But i want you to be honest with me.
Can you do that?
Do you trust me ?
Don't do things on your own.
Alrights.

2008-12-31T09:51:00.002+08:00

Let me tell you what you are right now.
Nothing but a coward.
You don't even dare to fight for your rights.
And then?
Happiness, it doesn't fall from the sky.
And you're throwing away these precious memories.
It wasn't easy being brought together.
Confirmation camp?
Hahs.
I don't regret being with you.
I don't regret saying all those things to you.
I don't regret wanting to give my life up for you.
Because every word i said, i meant it.
Even up till now.
I asked myself.
Why do i love you?
Why do i love you like i always do?
I really want to see you.
But i'm afraid.
That those tears will start flowing again.
You've changed.
You're no longer the one i knew.
The person i knew, wouldn't hurt me.
Wouldn't bear to make me cry.
Who are you?

2008-12-31T00:59:00.003+08:00

I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh,
everyday of my life.
I know what you are thinking.
I know you're reading this.
I don't have a web counter for nothing.
I'm really sick and tired of this okay,
If you're not tired, please.
I AM.
Stop taking me on roller-coaster rides.
Is this some kind of joke?
Be strong ? Bullshit.

2008-12-30T12:03:00.001+08:00

Just back from cheerleading.
I think i caught a fever.
I haven't had breakfast.
I think i'm gonna faint when i go out later.
Weak.
Cheerios,
DEL.

2008-12-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU is 8 Letters.
But so is BULLSHIT.

I think it really applies.
I don't know why.
I'm feeling pissed off right now.
I was already going to turn in for the night.
Thought about some things,
Felt stupidly emotional.
Cried.
Did stupid things.
Then decided to wake up and blog.
I'd like to curse and swear,
But well, better not.
I'd disfigure my own blog.
Why is it so DIFFICULT to DIE.
WHY THE FCUK MAN.
I tell you, life, i'd rather not live it.
Sorry to those who are dying out there.
But if i ever could give you my life, i would.
My apologies.
Okay, I really don't get whats going on.
I'm not really interested in it though.
Probably some worthless stuff.
Received a call just now.
My spirits got a little up.
But it plunged down deeper later on.
So yeahs.
Mum wanted to torture me by rubbing Counterpain on my ankle.
Please, pain until.
If God hates me so much, why don't he let me die instead.
I won't blame him.
Since, it doesn't matter.
I won't make a difference.
Singapore has millions of people.
One won't make a bloody difference.
Dying is also a good thing.
Things that are going on now.
I don't think you bother,
so why should i care so much.
So what.
So what.
SO WHAT.
I'm breaking down.
Emotionally, physically, spiritually.
Fcuk life.
And to the 3 people i promised not to do "it".
My deepest apologies.
Im already at my limit.
I can't hold any longer.
Why the hell did i hesitate for ?
A certain someone.
Who don't bother,
Don't care,
Don't give a damn.
And don't give a fcuk to whats happening here.
So readers of th-clover-x3.BS.com.
Learnt a lesson?
Don't make someone your EVERYTHING.
Cause when they are gone,
You have NOTHING.
I hate this,
I hate this world.
I hate being alive.
I hate being alone.
Liars. Fcuk.

2008-12-29T22:08:00.002+08:00

My ankle is hurting like shit right now.
Training and Cheerleading made it worse.
Well, alright.
Pain then die better la.

2008-12-29T16:00:00.002+08:00

Credits to Madeleine Yeo's blog. Lol.
Interesting la !

TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single ? - Ah. Physically.
2. Are you happy? -Nopes.
3. Are you bored? -Somewhat yes.
4. Are you fair? -Nopes. I'm tanned.
5. Are you Italian ? -Nopes.
6. Are you intelligent? -Of course. I can think for myself. LOL~
7. Are you honest ?- Who is ?
8. Are you nice?- Hmm. If you're nice to me. Hahas.
9. Are you Irish? Nahs.
10. Are you Asian? Like, duh.

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name : -Madeline Chan ! :D
2. Nicknames : -Madel, Del, Sasuke.
3. Birth place : -KKH
4. Hair color : -Brown-black.
5. Natural hair style :- Hebe's Hairstyle.
6. Eye Color : -Black.
7. Birthday : 19th March
8. Mood : Sad, Frustrated,Emo, Moody, Indescribable.
9. Favorite color : Pinkish-Red, Lime-green.
10.One place you'd like to visit : Japan !

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love : Of course.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight : Thats Infatuation
3. Do you currently have a crush? Nopes.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally : Duh.
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart : Yeaps.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken : Hmm. Yeahs.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them : Nopes. Hahas! ~
8. Are you afraid of commitment : Nopes.
9. Who was the last person you hugged : My darling.
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? -My darling.

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust? Love.
2. Hard liquor or beer? Yeaps. Nice !
3. Cats or dogs? Dogs of course.
4. A few best friends or any regular friends? A few best friends.
5. Creamy or Crunchy? - Creamy
6. Pencil or Pen? -Pencil.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in? -Romantic night in.
8. Money or Happiness: I'd say both. But of course Happiness lah !
9. Night or day? -Hmm. Day cause i have night-blindness? HAHAS.
10. IM or phone? Phone.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out? No.
2. Seen a polar bear? Yes.
3. Done something you regret? Yes.
4. Bungee jumped? No.
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor? - Eww. No.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker? -Nopes.
7. Been caught naked? No ! -.-
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back? -hmm...
9. Cried because you lost a pet?- Nopes. Cry for what. I no pets what. LOL.~
10. Wanted to disappear? Yes. Right NOW.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes? -Smile!
2. Light or dark hair?- I don't know. Lol.
3. Hugs or kisses?- I'd go for BOTH ! :D
4. Shorter or taller? Taller.
5. Intelligence or attraction?-Both.
6. Topman or Zara? -HUH.
7. Funny or serious? Both.
8. Older or Younger? Older.
9. Outgoing or quiet? Outgoing.
10. Sweet or Bad? What do you mean by BAD. -.-

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd? Yes.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour? Yes.
3. Ever tried walking on your hands? -Nopes.
4. Ever been to a rock concert? - Not interested.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team? -YES !
6. Ever been on a dance team? -Somewhat yes.
7. Ever been on a sports team? - Hmm. I think no.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production? -Yes. Primary school la !
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? -Nopes.
10. Ever been in a rap video?-Hell no.

TEN... LASTS
1. Last phone call you made : Mummy
2. Last person you hugged : Darling.
3. Last person you hung out with : Cousins
4. Last time you worked : Never in my life.
5. Last person you talked to : NPCC people.
6. Last person you IM'd : MSN rather, Gwen
7. Last person you texted : Empireshop
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with : Cousins
9. Last person/thing you missed : My darling. And Cheerleading !
10. Last website visited : www.th-clover-x3.blogspot.com

Cheerios !
Del.

2008-12-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

Darling, i'll love you no matter what alright.
Bet on it.

2008-12-28T21:16:00.002+08:00

I really don't know what to say.
I'm 15 already for Heaven's sake.
I'm not a kid anymore.
Moreover, please don't take me as one,
or treat me as one.
I can think for my own.
I have my own life.
I'm mature enough.
Please don't judge me by my appearance.
I may be small in size,
But please.
My attitude and character can overpower you alone.
I bet.
I'm not trying to be rude,
But i don't believe in being held down by decision makers.
I also don't believe in doing things against my will.
Cause that will never work.
But what to do?
Parents are the decision makers of relationships what.
I can't say much.
But i can say,
I'm fcking pissed off right now.
I'm serious.
Don't mess with my life.

So much for my happy ending.

2008-12-27T22:58:00.002+08:00

Looks like the best thing that happened this week was.
My mum got me an adidas watch,
thats all.
Only shopping made me happy.
No life.

2008-12-27T22:56:00.001+08:00

Why can't we just start over again,
Get things back to the way it was?
Why couldn't we decide?
Why must others decide for us ?
I don't understand.

2008-12-27T17:33:00.002+08:00

I'd like to say I'm okay.
But I'm not.
I'd like to say i understand.
But i can't.
I'd like to say I'll accept things the way they are now.
But i won't.
I'd like to say I'll be strong.
But I'm not.
I'd like to die right now.
But god won't let me.
I'd like you to hold me and tell me this is all a dream,
But it won't happen.
Because, this is all reality.
Just that i can't face up to it.
I'd like to say i won't cry no matter what,
But why are these tears coming out?
I'd like to say i want you by my side always.
But its impossible.
The you who promised me not to leave me alone,
left.
"I love you".
These 3 simple words, won't exist anymore.
"I miss you" .
Won't be missed anymore.
Because, no matter " i love you" or " i miss you".
It doesn't matter anymore.
Maybe i was too naive.
"I love you", three simple words that anyone can say freely.
Without even meaning it.
Truth or lies,
I can't differentiate anymore.
My heart, is aching.
i've learnt something.
Nothing lasts forever.
Cause even forever,
Don't seem like long enough.
Well, they say.
You can't lose what you never had.
I guess its true.
You were never mine to begin with right?
Doubt and trust,
Which will it be?
I feel so..
Deceived, by god.
Thanks for taking me on a roller-coaster ride.
Thank you.
Thank you for doing this to me.
Thank you.
Thank you for hurting me over and over again.
THANK YOU.
I guess that's your Job.
Some Christmas this is.
This is so fcking unfair.
Seriously.

Sorry for lying, Clar.

I'm alright, i guess.

I don't understand. Neither will i .

2008-12-27T15:36:00.003+08:00

慢慢失忆
所有和你的事情必须忘记
爱的盆地
深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想被你肯定
在这个时候
说我让你感动过
别握住我的手
说我一定会懂
作不成的爱人变成最好朋友
别牵著我的手
想著别人脸孔
换个方式牵手并不会更好过
可不可以不作你的朋友
慢慢心痛
没有人发现我和从前不同
你的眼中
看得见另一个人给的感动
我也不要你心疼我
在这个时候
对我比从前温柔
应该放晴的天气
还下雨
别这样下去
我难过但是说不出口
一直逃避我以为闭上眼睛
就能忘记
我的记忆
开始在雨天的七月二十三
慢慢经过
我们一起绕过的十字街头
怎么走都走不到尽头
可不可以别回头
可不可以就放手
可不可以不作你的朋友?

2008-12-26T18:22:00.001+08:00

God brought us together,
and yet, he separated us.

2008-12-26T18:16:00.002+08:00

I knew it.
But, why us ?

Let me die.

Bye bye world.

26 December 2008.

2008-12-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

I sprained my foot.
Damn.
Monday still got NP.
I'm so dead please.
Anyway.
I wonder what's gonna happen now.
From here on.
I'm quite disturbed,
So i drank some 40% alcohol.
Super shiok can.
I'm not drunk.
I swear.
But i felt my liver burning so i stopped drinking.
Weak laa.
Hope mummy's gonna get my my adidas watch :D
For my early birthday present .
Woohoo ~
I feel like screaming.
Haiz.
Shit.

And i wonder,

Whether you were thinking of me this moment.

I guess not.

2008-12-25T02:47:00.001+08:00

I miss Honey.
Hope he's alright.
):

so tired. Off to bed.
Merry x' mas everyone :D

Cheerios ~

2008-12-23T23:53:00.003+08:00

Darling's at Batam.
Aww. I miss him already.
Hope he reached Batam safe and sound.
Not going for NP tmr.
Having Christmas party,
so i have to cook.
LOL.
So tired. Haiz.
Hope Darling comes back soon.
Hahas.
Merry 'X mas people ! :D
Cheerios.

2008-12-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

Alrights.
Basically, nothing ,much happened.
I'll update about friday's training.
Had PT, and then punishment.
Did 120 excluding the 100 plus we owe.
50 pumpings, 20 crunches, 10 laps, 10 starjumps,
20 jumping jets, and 10 idk what.
Whew !
Almost died. LOL~
And got sunburnt too.
But, finally ! The week of training is over.
But there's more next week.
Went for Project J.
though i was quite tired.
But who cares ! :D
Yesterday was tiring.
Went to Vivo City today.
Actually wanted to buy Christmas presents.
But in the end walked around and ended up buying groceries.
Hahas. Well..
Feeling sleepyy.
Hmm.. One more day before Honey's trip.
I'm soo gonna miss him.
):
sadsadsadsadsadsad ! ~
Haiz.
I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

2008-12-18T22:59:00.004+08:00

Bonjour people! :D
Okay. First off.
NP was really tiring yesterday.
I almost died.
With the GOH training, PT and Cheerleading.
Whew!
I feel like my heart is getting weaker by day.
Oh well. Who cares! :D
Anyway. Tomorrow's sec one orientation.
Wonder what's gonna happen ._.
Hahas.
Anyway. Had a super long and tiring day today.
Went to Simei early morning.
In the end i don't even know why i went there for.
Wasted my time please.
N' level results today! :D
So glad Honey's results were good.
Thank God. LOL.
Okay, after i went to Simei,
went to meet Honey after he collected his results.
So practically spent one hour waiting at Serangoon station.
Considered today as "one day" spent with Honey.
Was super happy to be able to see him today.
Cos' of NP and stuff, was unable to.
):
Probably won't be able to see him till Next year.
Aww man.
I'll miss him like shit please.
He's going on a trip next tues.
Hopefully i can send him off. Hahas!
Wishful thinking. *
Hmm. Anyways, my whole body is aching like hell.
Stupid PT ! ~
Hopefully, i still can pull through the stunts tmr.
Aww this sucks, BIG TIME.
Anyway, something "suay" happened to me yesterday.
My finger kenna stepped on while doing pumping.
Kns. Pain please! Bleeding okay ! T.T
Okay !
Anyway. Nothing to blog about.
So, Cheerios~

2008-12-18T22:52:00.003+08:00

Boo ! :D
Ah. I found a few lines of the song 白色风车 by Jay Chou quite meaningful.
Hmm.
Here it is :

我陪你走到最后
能不能不要回头?
你紧紧地抱住我
说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由

会不会手牵着手?
晚一点才到尽头

Hmm. Maybe it doesn't really apply but yeah.
Hahas.
I'll update the recent events on a separate post.

2008-12-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people !
Sorry for not updating.
Not much happenings.
Edited a photo, damn nice please!
BUT. I won't show it to you guys~
*evil laughsss*
Anyway!
NPCC training began after the 3 weeks hiatus.
Well, have to wake up early again.
So yeaps. I'm dead.
You'll see me practically running to school.
Anyway.
Yesterday night, i couldn't sleep.
I was afraid.
Hmm.
Alrights. Anyway.
I think i'm gonna get diarrhoea man.
My stomach is so damn pain please.
T.T Must be the crab.
Oh god.
Almost fainted in the toilet while bathing.
Just felt so friggin' dizzy._.
Hope i'll be able to make it for NP tmr.
):

Just when i found you,

I'll have to lose you,

Sooner or later.

2008-12-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

I cannot cry,

Because i know that's weakness in your eyes.

2008-12-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY HONEY!

I LOVE YOU. <3

2008-12-10T03:50:00.004+08:00

Just a nice song i'd like to share. Enjoy!

Title :. Till The End

All these precious moments

With you by my side

Must be a gift from heaven

that's holding me all right

I don't know how I found you

I'm thankful that I have

Now that I have a love so true

To hold to keep to share

In my heart I can no longer hold inside

All of the love I used to hide

I'll always be with you until the very end

In this world there is no place I'd rather be

You are my life my soul my girl

And through it all

I know you're come to see

that you're the one

till the end

All my friends around me

Say you'd be gone too soon

Baby i'm gonna make then see

We've found our way back home

We'll always be

till the end

2008-12-10T03:37:00.003+08:00

Mummy's Birthday card ! :D

Alrights. Its like 3.39am now.

I spent about 2 hours doing mummy's birthday card.

So tiring, but worth it, hahas.

And Honey's in Server's camp.

Wonder how he's doing now..

Hmm.. Worried la.

Hahas.

Hope he doesn't indulge himself on coke or pepsi.

So sleepy.

But i can't sleep.

I miss Honey like hell please.

Urgh.

Hope Nick is taking care of him. :D

Hahas.

Aww. 3 days without Honey.

Though we went for breakfast in the morning,

I still miss him. T.T

Naruto takes freaking long to come out one ep.

So i've been watching Bleach for the time being.

Ahhh. Shippuden movie 2 PLEASE COME OUT!

Aww. This suck.

Hahas. :D

I have an unfavourable feeling.

That something bad is going to happen.

Haiz. God.

Help please ? Onegai.

Hope that everything will be alright.

I miss Honey.

2008-12-09T00:36:00.002+08:00

In this post,
I'd like to thank God.
Well, something sorta happened.
Woah, i was crying like shit.
And praying damn hard.
I'm not going to tell you guys the content of what i prayed about.
I only know it came true.
Except for some part la.
Thank you Nick! :D
Hahas. At least my prayer has been heard.
So yeaps.
Honey is alright, for now.
Haiz.
I don't know what to do.
):

And i prayed.

I love you Honey, i swear.

2008-12-07T23:32:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people :D
Sorry for not updating for about 2 days or so.
I'll just update about today.
Went to Somerset, then to Orchard.
And then to Bishan.
Just to buy my confirmation dress and shoes.
And the price of the dress is about 70 bucks.
The price of my shoes was about 40 bucks.
God.
Seriously, i don't know why.
Hahas, i looked into the mirror.
And i thought, corpse bride. -.-
HAHAS~~
Okay la. Maybe not That bad~
Alrights. Ate at Cafe' Cartel.
So full please.
Oh my gawd.
Anyway, Honey told me some news.
Well, I'm not taking it well.
Based on my character,
I'll only think negatively.
I'm afraid.
Afraid that i'll wake up alone.
):

2008-12-04T23:39:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people ! :D
I'm back from Genting Cum KL.
Its a not-so-fun trip.
But, i had fun with my cousin and sista.
Hmm.
Basically, we didn't visit the themepark.
Went to KTV 3 times.
Incredible right?
Thats why i'm down with a flu.
Anyway.
Missed Honey much! :D
Went Bowling about almost every single day.
Addicted to it.
Hahas. Spent about 500 rm.
Went shopping like everyday.
Being the shopping queen i was.
Lol. ~
Anyway, yesterday landed about 8.30 or so.
I forgot.
But yeahs, i text Honey the moment the plane landed. (:
My throat is super sore.
Due to KTV for a total of 9 hours.
And was so disappointed that i didn't get to shop at Chinatown.
And Times-square. ):
I sacrificed my shopping for KTV. ~
Argh.
Anyway, I have not even touched my holiday assignments.
Hahas, well, who cares.
I'll do it later ~
Lol. Alrighty, gonna catch up on my anime.
Ciaos!~

I love you Honey ! (:

2008-12-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

Oh my gawd please.
I'm at Genting's lan shop.
Hahas. I'm itching to blog, thats why.
Okay, it has only been a day or so.
And i'm starting to miss Honey like hell.
Awww.
Hope he's alright, i guess.
Okay, anyway.
Didn't visit the theme park.
Just sat flying coaster.
And Honey, i brought flu with me :D
Everywhere i went. I swear! ~
Hahas, bought a lot of things luh.
Spent 300 bucks in 2 days.
Incredible.
Aww, what to do, Genting's my shopping paradise.
Hahas!~
Anyway, I miss Honey sooo much.
10x infinity + 1.
And and. Flu misses you too :D
Hahas! He actually went Shopping, KTV,
and wherever except toilet with me.
Hahas! What to do.
Haiz.
Okays, i'm off ~

I miss you honey,

And i love you ! ~

2008-11-28T22:38:00.003+08:00

Honey just sent me home from church.
So yeah, here i am.
Hahas.
The Priest was super funny please.
Oh my gawd~
Hahas. And Honey's dad was playing the guitar.
Super cool.
Oh shit.
Forgot to take USB cable from Honey.
Ahh. God.
Anyway, those 2 hours were good enough for me to pray.
I wouldn't mind staying in church abit longer.
But yeah.
Awww, flying off to m'sia tmr.
Gonna miss Honey man.
Miss me and take care of yourself alrights ?
(:

I love you Honey (:

2008-11-28T00:17:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people ! :D
Went out with Honey, Nana, and Nick.
Went to Northpoint to meet Nana.
Then took a bus down to Causeway.
Returned my library book.
After that had lunch at KFC.
Hahas !
Walked around after that.
Then left causeway about 3 plus.
Took bus back to NP.
Then went back home.
Really had a great time. :D
Honey, Nana and Nick were superb Jokers.
Seriously, today was awesome !~
Anyway. Since its like 1.00am now,
I can officially say, I'm going Genting tmr.
While i'm updating here,
I'm chatting with Honey on the phone. :D
I'm gonna miss Honey luh ~~~
Oh My Gawd. Hahas.
Awwww, its a 3pm flight la, so yeah.
Anyway. Thats all for now.
Ciao~

I'm missing ya' Honey ~

2008-11-27T01:32:00.001+08:00

I Can't imagine, life without your love.

Cause even forever, don't seem like long enough.

2008-11-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

Today was alright.
Yesterday night Honey got admitted to hospital.
Somehow i knew what happened.
Because Honey didn't pick up my calls nor reply my texts.
So i got super worried.
And yeap. I guessed correctly.
So i prayed harder than usual.
And i began to worry like hell.
And cried myself to sleep.
So yeaps.
But early morning about 6.45am or so.
I received Honey's call.
Or was it me that called.
I don't know.
But just Super duper glad i heard his voice.
At least he's alright.
Phew.*
God. YAY.
So basically.
Went out with Vanessa to NP and Causeway.
And ate with mum at AMK hub.
Ichiban sushi. Hahas.
Kinda suck. Sakae nicer please.
Bought my school books today.
Cost about 62 bucks.
Then we went to popular and spent about 28 bucks on stationery.
Hahas. That's why mummy always say i'm expensive.
How dumb of me please.
I borrowed a book previously, and its due tmr.
And i went to the library today. Shit right.
Oh whatever.
An excuse to go out again :P
So yeahs, went home.
Then cooked.
Didn't see Honey the whole day today. ):
AWW MAN.
I miss you la. Hahas.
one more day to Genting cum KL.
Oh my gawd.
How am i gonna survive without Honey.
I'll worry like some shit please.
Oh god.
Hope nothing happens. Haiz.
Vanessa is promoting sharks in her blog, go read! :X
Hahas. Europe consumes the most shark fins just so you know.
Duh ~
Stupid. Hahas.
Alrights. Time to sleep.
Being the pig i am. Hahas! ~
Ciaos!

Continue to bless Honey, okays ?

2008-11-25T16:31:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people ! :D
Okay, sorry for not blogging yesterday.
Cos' i was so frickin' pissed.
Anyway, a short update about yesterday.
Went out for Prata with Honey in the morning.
Then went to void deck to chit-chat awhile.
He told me ghost stories. Brrr ~
After that went home.
So yeah. Blah blah.~
Anyway. Honey's gonna get a pup.
He says I'm gonna make the pup die or smth.
So not true !~
Hahas. Watched Naruto movie 3 again yesterday.
Really, seriously, bored man.
Anyway, this morning went out for BBT with Honey.
Chit-chat at void deck again.
Went to buy Vanessa's GAGT then went home.
HAHAS. Funny thing was, i left my handphone in Honey's bag.
So i called him, and he was already home.
Lightning speed huh.
Blur me. LOL.
Sorry Honey :P
So yeah, he passed me my phone and off he went.
Thanks Yeah! (:
Alrightys. I think thats about it.
So, Ciaos !~

Baaa-aaaaabbb ~

2008-11-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people ! :D
Today was a super mixed emotions kinda day.
Happy because i got to see Honey in the morning :D
Hahas! <3
And Daddy bought me this superb kawaii Pooh bear.
Hmm. Gonna name it..
Socks ! :D *jap tone please*
Hahas! I bet not many will know how to pronounce anyway.
Anyway. Daddy decided to buy a car.
A car that sucks, be it in colour or in brand.
Avante, blue. WTH.
I mean like, not classy at all please.
And if they were to choose that stupid colour, what for ask me along.
Dumb please.
Well, i'm never gonna let myself drive a non-classy car.
I want a FERRARI ! :D
Wooohooo ~
Okay. Went to Grandma's house for dinner.
Then to Giant. Buy groceries and stuff.
Super tired luh.
But i bet Honey's even more tired than me.
When i'm looking at shitty cars,
Honey was looking at super kawaii Golden Retriever pups man !
No fair no fair !
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
This sucks.
But at least i got to see Honey today. YAY ! :D
Honey's probably asleep right now.
Tired from all that cycling i guess.
Hahas. I'm also tired from all that walking,
nevertheless, here's a post for my faithful readers (:
Cool right !
Hahas. Alrights.
Ciaos!~

I love you Honey ! :D

2008-11-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people.
Seriously, i'm so not in the freaking mood to blog.
Women's problems ya' see ?
Crap.
Anyway.Today was a super boring day.
Hahas, I'm serious.
Practically, today was "dye-hair" day.
My mom dyed for my sister,
and i dyed for Mom.
Hahas. So i highlighted my own hair.
Not permanent of course.
Pink+ purple + red.
HAHAS~
Because of NP luh. LOL.
The minute i POP i'll dye my hair man.
HAHAS~
nahs, after O's.
Even though Vanessa dyed a brown sorta colour,
It wasn't that obvious.
I'll dye an obvious brown.
*evil laughs* !
Hmm. Life sucks.
BIG TIME.
Honey, i miss you laaaaa.
Days without you suck. T.T
Oh yeah, i completed my Jigsaw !
YAY!
And it was 3 days of work so yeah.
Ciaos!

I MISS YOU HONEY .

2008-11-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

MAKE UP POST !

Wednesday:
Went to Honey's house for a movie Marathon.
Watched 10 promises to my dog, Cody banks and White chicks.
Was there about 9am or so in the morning i think.
So sleepy. Hahas.
But yeaps. Really had a great time.
Went home and take a nap.
But my mum woke me up when its barely even one hour of sleep.
After that went out to dinner with mum and sis.
Went home and re-did my Full-U.
Superb tired, so i slept damn early.
Next day NP what.
HAHAS.

Thursday:
Alrighty.
Woke up at 8 am just to eat my breakfast,
just to ensure that i won't faint during GOH.
Hahas!
And so i didn't today :D YAY ME !
Okay.
Cheer leading is super FUN please.
But on the day,
The CIs aren't performing with us.
That's why I'm worried.
Their getting another guy to replace Sir Hanafi.
And i have to admit.
I don't trust one of my base.
That's why i think I'm gonna fall and die on the actual day.
So yeah.
But anyway.
Honey got admitted to hospital.
Wonder if he's alright now..
But yeah.
I don't have my penknife, but i have my blade with me.
I'm a practical person.
I don't think most of you, even my best friend,
know my personality very well.
Not surprising.
Its not like i open up that easily.
Hahas !
Today had some changing parade.
So sickening, but who cares.
I feel like learning piano.
But i'll have lesser time for Honey.
So i think not now bah..
Haiz. So freaking stress and i can't do anything.
How come it has to happen every single time.
Everyday.
Is this going to be going on and on..
If i'm going to cry on and on everyday.
I'll go blind before the time God has planned for me.
): fcuk life man.

I want to be with you forever.

But forever don't seem like long enough.

2008-11-20T00:12:00.001+08:00

penknife. can't find it.

fcuk.

2008-11-19T18:57:00.003+08:00

Basically, today was alright.
Alright, about today's training.
Ma'am Zulaikha and Sir Hanafi came back as CIT's.
YAY !
So basically she's in charge of our CCA open house 2009.
Today was GOH cum CCA open house training.
Maybe it was because i didn't sleep enough,
Or i didn't eat breakfast.
A few minutes of marching and i couldn't take it man.
HAHS!
Sounds freaking stupid, but true.
So i gave up one of my five chances and went to sit at the concourse.
Learnt my lesson man.
Damn.
Thank the heavens for blessing honey.
Seriously, my heart skipped a beat man.
THANK GOD.
Anyway. Now for the exciting part.
Actually Terrance and i were in Fancy Drills.
But then, i was like 39- 40 kg.
Can say lightest or smth there.
Then Terrance was in a sense strong .
So yeah, he's gonna carry me during performance.
HAHAS.
Please, its freaking scary okay !
But not for Ma'am Sharbana,
Cos she's in cheerleading.
Well anyway.
Got lifted up by Sir Hanafi and Terrance.
Had to stand straight on their palms.
SCARY !~
In my head i was like " shit man, i'm gonna die "
Hahas! And luckily enough,
The first attempt succeeded ! Woah !~
But the second, third, fourth, and fifth didn't.
Cos' my legs were trembling non-stop man.
WOAH!
But but but !
The sixth attempt succeeded !
Hahas.
PRO RIGHT !
Thanks to macho people like Terrance and Sir Hanafi.
But i'm so so so not gonna do that stunt again
HAHAS.
We did another stunt.
Which Terrance have to lift me up high and put me on his shoulders.
Well, it succeeded the first time :D
Because we did the routine only once.
*evil laughs*
HAHAS. But fun luh.
At least i didn't fall.
So yeah, cool.
Friday having training again. Haiz.
Better eat my breakfast.
And hope the sun isn't that strong during GOH training .
Hahas, yeah luh. I have a weak body.
Rather be in flag party or smth.
Though being a flag escort is way better,
HAHAS. I still remembered area 2 POP.
Being a flag escort is so cool please !
Awww. I want a second time man.
Hahas. Alrightys.
I'll go back to my jigsaw puzzle.
Ciaos people ! :D

God, continue to watch over honey, onegai.

I love you Honey ! <3

2008-11-19T00:30:00.003+08:00

Music can express one's soul they say, its true :D

Without you, all i'm going to be is Incomplete. [ incomplete ]
I still need you, I still care about you. [ i still ]
I still feel you, like i'm right beside you.
I won't live my life without you. [ never let you go ]
Everybody's got something, [ never had a dream come true ]
they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
No matter how I try and try,
I just can't say goodbye.

Okay time to sleep.
Nights people ! :D

Promise me.

2008-11-18T19:46:00.005+08:00

Bonjour people ! :D

I realised that there are many silent readers in my blog.

Tag la ! Uh-luh ~

Alrighty.

Just went out with cousin to eat dinner just now.

Okay la. Went Chong Pang.

Had a slight fever this afternoon.

Sleep sleep sleep till about 6pm i think.

Or was it ? Hahas !

Anyway, i'll finish with a retarded photo. :P

Retarded please ! My Raccoon- " Xiao gui "

P.S. Honey, i love you :D

2008-11-18T12:10:00.002+08:00

Somehow or rather.
I cooled down.
So yeahs.
I hope god will continue to answer my prayers.
Honey, take care alrights ?
I love you.

I love you, yes i do.

I'll be with you as long as you want me to.

Until, the very end of time.

2008-11-17T20:51:00.002+08:00

This Morning when i woke up.
Seriously, i could hardly open my eyes.
As in, so swollen please.
Morever, i can hardly see now even with my night light on at night.
I think my night-blindness is getting worse.
Hahas ! Who knows, maybe i'll become blind.
Anyway, today's training was alright i guess.
We're doing fancy drills for CCA open house :D
YAY !
Hahas~
Throughout the training i was seriously worried.
But yeaps. Honey is alright, for now.
(:
Went out for lunch with Honey after Training just now.
Probably because of NP, won't get to see Honey much.
What to do ?
Haiz. Baka's out at Mandai zoo today.
So envious la.
She can stay out late and i can't .
So freaking unfair please !
DUH. We're only like one year difference.
And she got her DSL yesterday. BLACK !
I help her choose, thats why cool. *giggles*.
Can't wait to go Genting cum KL.
Ahh !~ Miss steamboat sooo much.
I ain't called a shopping queen for nothing alrights.
Of course, i'm soooo gonna miss Honey when i'm gone.
):
So yeahs. Thats all i think. For today.
Ciaos people ! ~

If you weren't here with me,

I don't know how i can carry on .

Honey, i love you. (:

2008-11-17T01:37:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i hope Honey is alright.
If anything happens, God, please take me away instead.
I'm serious, i swear.
Training later.
I hope nothing happens.
URGH.
I can't help but worry.
God. Please.

Honey, don't leave me alone in this world.

2008-11-16T17:33:00.002+08:00

Honey's probably mad at me now.
So yeah.
Here i am, with some shitty mood.
Just take it as its my fault, alright.
It doesn't matter.
So yeah.
I don't like it when you do things like being emo because of me.
Maybe to you its something small.
But to me, its big enough make me feel like killing myself.
Because i care.
And i seriously don't want anything to happen to you.
Even if something did happen, i'd rather it happened to me.
I'm sorry, alrights ?
Where's stephanie when i need her man.
Haiz.
I ain't bringing this mood to GOH tmr.
I can't.

Gomenasai, i know i've let you down.

Im sorry, and i love you.

2008-11-15T17:57:00.005+08:00

Bonjour people ! :D

Today, to me, was considerably a damn busy day.

But then kindda enjoyed it, so yeah.

Initially, Stephanie and I were thinking about going jogging the night before.

But i kindda ignored my alarm clock when it rang.

So yeah, in the end Honey had to wake me up instead.

Ended up, baking and decorating cookies.

Went North Point to have lunch.

After that went Incut to cut my hair.

So freaking regret it man.

But yeah, have to get used to it.

Now all i can do is say:

*Grow faster grow faster ! *

F4.

So here are some pictures of the cookies i decorated. :D

Aren't they cute ? Hahas! :D

Alrighty.

Gotta eat dinner,

Till then.

Ciaos! ~

Aishiteru.

2008-11-15T03:01:00.003+08:00

Okay people ! :D
Its like 3.01am now.
So yeah.
I'm here to crap about today as well as my resolutions for next year :D
Bear with me.
Alrighty, first off.
Today went out to North Point with Stephanie to meet Honey.
The plan initially was to explore the new library.
But yeah, anyway.
We went inside North point and walked around admiring all the super cute toys.
Seriously.
After that, we decided to go Causeway Point.
So we were sort of window-shopping.
After that we headed outside for the Pasar Malam.
Bought something to eat and we headed off to Sembawang,
To meet Chelsea and Cris.
Saw Debbi and Aisya at the MRT station.
Its a small world after all ! :D
So we just walked around again, and went into the library to sit.
Went to Yamaha, and woah.
VIOLINS AND PIANOS !
I was like, " i'm sooo gonna buy this next time ! "
HAHAS.
Okay, after that we left and Headed back to Yishun,
Cause Stephanie and I had to go home while the rest had Project J afterwards.
And Guess what.
Saw Kristin and Sisi ! :D
Seriously, how small is Singapore ?
So we said our goodbyes on the 804 on the way home.
Okay, this is the first most detailed post I've ever posted this year.
And here i am drinking milo while having Gastric pain.
High metabolism is seriously.. bad in a way.
Yeahs.

So for now, Resolutions cum wishes !
:D
Lets see ;
-Get back my first position in class :D
-SAVE MONEY.
-Super good grades :D
-Learn Piano/ Violin.
-A dog :DD
-No more Curfews !
-New Lappy.

And lastly..

- ITS A SECRET. (:

Ciaos people! :D

Without you where do i belong ?

2008-11-14T01:02:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people ! :D
Today was really a half fun and half boring day.
Hahas. I won't fill in the details though.
*Giggles*
Okay, anyway.
Firstly, GOH is up, and CCA prep is also on.
Luckily i'm not in charge of anything big.
For once, i don't really need to worry about proposals and stuff.
So yeah.
And and. Puppies are so cute please.
I really had a great time today, seriously.
:D
Okay, anyway, Stephanie, my cousin is staying over at my house now.
Since Baka isn't at home, we practically have the whole house to us tmr.
We practically bitch about everthing .
Well, almost. Hahas !
And i found out smth interesting though, i confirmed it.
Hahas!
Gonna "bao liao" to igy tmr. hahas!
IM SERIOUS ~
Hahas. Alrighty, Ciaos~

And Baby, I love you.

2008-11-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

Today was.

FABULOUSLY AWESOMEEEEE :DDDDD

11.11.08

Anyone realised today is 11.11 ?

HAHAS.

2008-11-10T22:47:00.002+08:00

心不再拚命躲,不去害怕结果.

假设有个以后,你会怎么说?

爱转角以后的街,能不能有我来陪?

也许陌生到了解,让我来当你的谁?

2008-11-09T19:31:00.005+08:00

*edited :P *

Okay people ! :D
I'm back ~
Anyway. Confirmation camp rocks :D
Its like, though separated from friends,
I've made new ones !
I'm not that anti-social after all :P
Okay. I'll update on it then.
Day one :D
Practically, it was about 30 minutes ride i think.
Well, I brought an exceptionally small bag.
While Gwen on the other hand brought one luggage.
HAHAS !
Natalie joined us at night after dinner.
Anyway, actually i can't remember whats on the first day.
Dots.
Second Day
Ah.
I remembered.
We had morning activity, exercise.
And okay. Captain's fruit.
God. That game almost murdered me.
Hahas, Imagine throwing fruits.
Which are going to rot but not yet.
Smells like puke though, Eeww.
I got a total of 4 kinds of fruits on me.
Thanks to Igy. Hahas!
It be different if i were in NVSS PE tee.
Hahas !
Anyway. After that was Praise and Worship or smth.
Cool man.
Ah. I remembered.
Nat and I were like so scared la.
I think you guys can guess pretty much ?
Okay. At least Nat could like sleep.
I invited her over to my bed since she was afraid.
So yeah, she slept at about 2am ?
But i was tossing and turning.
Thinking and imagining stupid things.
I mean like, yeah.
Then in the end i had to go to Igy for help.
And thanks to him comforting me,
I felt much much better, Thanks !
LOL.
Okay, it pretty much helped a lot.
But the thunder vibrated the whole building.
Which was kinda creepy. Damn it.
Hahas!
Third day
Hmm.
Okay, thank the lord.
It was raining. soooo.
No PT.
Hahas ! ~
I skipped breakfast.
I forgotten whats after that.
Ah. Javis came to preach.
And i tell you people ,
I've never cried so much in my life.
Okay, at first there wasn't any tear.
Nat started tearing first.
Then followed by me.
Well, i could say, i was touched by God.
I don't know myself.
I only know i asked myself :
"Jesus have done so much for me.
But what have i done in return ? "
And with that, i started crying like crazy.
Okay, not that crazy.
And my mum's card made it worst.
First time soo touching pleaseee :D
I've opened up quite a lot.
So yeah. (:
In conclusion
Hmm. Actually, this camp was damn fun.
No stress, no nothing.
But, i want to thank my Facilitators,
Chelsea, Kevin 1, Kevin 2, and including Igy :D
If it weren't for them, i wouldn't have open up so much.
Be it to God, My group or whatsoever.
It was really fun.
And like OBS, if there was a second time, I'd go man.
:D Im not kiddin'.
Anyway, I'm gonna make up for my lost sleep. (:
I think Igy should too.
Hmm. Okays.
Ciaos ! ~

When the world changes.

Everything changes along with it.

Including You, and Me.

2008-11-03T23:41:00.003+08:00

Declan Galbraith

Okay. This guy is a superb singer,

PLUS, a Major Hot stuff - DUH !

Log on tuh Youtube,

And search for his video - An angel.

I bet your jaws will all drop -.-

Seriously, He's talented and only 17 this year.

And he can control his pitch so well man ~

Okay, Anyway.

Spent the whole day reading manga.

HAHAS.

Mmph. Though some short ones unlike Absolute boyfriend.

-You're my Girlfriend

-1/3 no kareshi

-7th period is a secret

Basically just Shoujou *(romance) kind.

Hahas. But superb.

Tomorrow Going to RP to do CIP.

Seriously, what a drag.

Have to wake up at 630 ya 'know !

God.

To think i've been waking up like 1 plus for the last few days.

Geesh.

Alrighty.

Ciaos !

2008-11-03T03:52:00.002+08:00

Alrighty, look at the time !
Approx 4am.
I finally read finish Absolute boyfriend.
Superb manga.
The first one ever to make me shed tears,
I don't know why, its just too.. sad.
Well, off tuh sleep now.

Zettai Kareshi;

2008-11-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people ! :D
Its been a while hasn't it.
HAHAS.
Okay fine, i haven't been updating as promised.
Gomeneh.
Anyways. With the much boring holidays right now.
Nothing much tuh update.
Lets see.
Everyday is now manga-ing, when theres no anime, that is.
I read Naruto in 3 days.
Vampire knight in day.
And im currently reading D gray man.
HAHA.
Okay, off i go ~
Ciaos !

2008-10-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

Alrightys. One last post for today and i'm done.
I tell you, Sky of Love is fantabulous.
Vanessa said : " if you don't cry watching this movie you not human ah. "
Then i said: " No la, i never cry. HAHA. "
BAKA.
I actually was. Lol.
Hiro is cute can !
And though some parts of the story was kinda lame.
Its touching like idk what.
Well, gonna rewatch it some other day.
Without my sister, that is.
Urgh. Dying for horror movies.
But i'm such a bum.
Lazy to go to the cinema which is approx 4 stops away.
Hahas. What a drag. Lol.
I'm gonna get a drumstick.
Eh? Not that chicken kidda drumstick people.
Lol. DRUM-stick. Gonna carve something special on it.
I can't wait. Mmph :D
Don't know whether i'm having appendictis or whatever you call it.
My stomach's been hurting like hell lately.
Urgh.
Ciaos !

2008-10-25T16:59:00.003+08:00

MY DREAM PIANO ! :D
MY DREAM VIOLIN !:D
nice right, hahas.

I mean like, cool la please.

I'll try to go for a few violin lessons. HAHAS.

Ciaos!

2008-10-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people.
This post is about my super bad results.
When i said bad, i mean bad.
Okay, i failed Triple math.
Also known as A math, emath and POA.
So so disappointed about my results.
Mr tan still included some disturbing remarks -.-
Won't emphasise in detail though.
Quite dumb.
Anyway, I'm still going to 4A1.
YAY me ? Hahas.
Another word for stupid, Dense.
LOL.
Confirmation is coming alrd.
Its so fast, camp.
Another thing.
The publicity campaigne was a total waste of my bloody time.
I mean like, want to cancel then do it in the first place luh.
Don't waste all the CCA group's time.
Put in so much effort, in the end ?
Tell me no time, then might as well don't hold it in the first place.
Think people so free as to come down or stay back for training.
Don't know what shit excuse they giving me.
That day was The trip to Singapore flyer day.
And i tell you, it frigging ruined my mood.
What a drag.
And you just tell me a simple sorry.
Sorry. I don't give a damn.
Now i'll focus on CCA open house instead.
I think it'll be much better.
HAHAS. Ciaos !

P.s This post is not pointing to any CCA in particular.
I just think the whole event was a waste of our time thats all. -.-

2008-10-24T21:37:00.004+08:00

Other class 's painting

other class's painting

3A1's Mozac painting :D

So proud of myself. Lol.

Because i did most of the painting. HAHA.

Anyway, it was fun.

I lovee art :D Hahas.

Okay, Ciaos !

2008-10-24T21:01:00.010+08:00

Bonjour !

My deepest apologies for being such a bum though exams are long over.

Gomeneh.

Anyway, i'll update, a long one ?

Maybe.

Alrighty! Lets see.

First time on the Singapore flyer gave me a very fascinating experience. LOL.

omg. Like writing compo.

Yeaps, snap pictures, talk talk, see scenery, thats about it.

I'll post pictures on the Singapore flyer trip.

Nice view right ! :D

From inside the cabin

Clover & Lil' Miss Trouble !

3A1's treasures, the only 6 guys. LOL.

Qaisser 's Big GULP.

Uchiha clan ! :D Huat ah !~

Till then, Ciaos !

2008-10-10T18:34:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people !
Finally, exams are over.
Mug mug mug till 3- 4 am is gonna kill me yah.
Anyway, a few paper owned me and some i own. hahas !
Okay, POA is confirm goner, Emaths, chemistry.
DIEDIEDIE.
After last paper i went home.
Mmph. slept at about two.
Woke up at 7.30 pm.
Hahas ! Today slept till 1145.
Lazy bum.
Thanks to all my taggers who kept tagging me,
though it seem that i have not blogged in like, forever.
POA paper 1, i did it for 10 mins then i went to sleep. LOL.
I mean, seriously.
It's what they say, "don't know how to do, tikam la ! "
HAHAS.
I can't believe it. I actually though A maths was much easier than Emaths.
Lol. Anyway, can't wait for KBOX.
I want to thank my cousin who stayed up with me last minute,
To do my Trading, Profit and loss and Balance sheet.
HAHAS. And Mr ng actually said i scored well in in that area :D
arigatou.
Ciaos.

如果他总为别人撑伞,

我何苦非为他等在雨中?

2008-10-01T03:47:00.002+08:00

Look at the time people.
Its 3.48 am.
I spent about 2 hours doing blogskin.
Because something was wrong with e' code.
Anyway, great news :D
I scored 30/40 for my Paper 2 Passage A.
HAHAS !
But there's a possibility that i won't do too well.
I was thinking of something else while writing my compo.
Mmph. Joping didn't come today.
So bored can.
And and and.
D gray man is at the final episode already,
Omg. What am i gonna watch from now on man.
I ran out of nice animes like S.A to watch.
Grr, but VK is coming out already.
So i'll just wait then.
For now, its bedtime.
Ciaos.

好想知道,

你的100分会给怎样的人.

2008-09-28T23:13:00.003+08:00

馬鹿がないし、確認する前に何も仮定してはいけない。

I'm no idiot either.

2008-09-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

Don't believe that it was a coincidence.
Neither do i believe its fate.
Anyway, been couch potato-ing for 2 days.
LAZY BUM.
There's not much to blog.
Ate at BK just now.
Didn't have much appetite though.
Maybe i ate too much. Mmph.
Urgh.
I won't set any hopes for now.
I know that it will fall, every single time.
So, i'd rather not disappoint myself time and again.
One Friday without NP seems so weird.
But thank god.
If not, Mr Tan would take my precious Saturday for remedials.
Grr. Chinese paper was alright.
I copied and paste 2 short paragraphs into a 7 mark question.
Lol. Literally, its wrong, but don't know what crap to write.
So i edited a lil' bit. HAHA.
Yewfai described my mood as "Scary".
Well, because of all the stress i'm getting.
I tend to get mad at people who step on my toes quite easily.
Oh well.
I bet i'll be back to normal when exams are over.
:D

We're in a Loop.

I think people who take litearture will understand.

That is, if they are smart enough.

Ciaos.

2008-09-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

I had it.
Mr tan is too much alrighty.
He threw us 2 tests and on top of that, we had a Social studies and Physics test.
Everyday was A math cum E math hell.
Because he threw us tests EVERYDAY.
Like i said, i'm gonna lose my sanity before EOY starts.
I remembered, i stared hard at the paper and i got so stressed up.
I was cursing and swearing at Mr tan please.
I know he's doing this for our own good.
But i think he's going too far.
Today was the most stressing day i've ever been through.
I'm serious.
The first time i ever cried because i felt i was gonna explode.
After the test, i felt i could like burst, so i ran out.
Tomorrow there's another test again.
I don't know how long this is gonna carry on.
The only thing i know is that,
I can't take it anymore.
And i'm in awe of those who took O level subjects all at one go.
Kudos man.
Now, I'd rather fall sick and die.
I think even the express has it better than us.
Grr.
Fight or Flight ?
):

Wakarimasen.

2008-09-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

This whole week is gonna be stressing.
Mock exams for the whole week.
Remedials, remedials and more remedials.
Saturday night, my cousin stayed over at my house.
Was quite fun though, i admired her flexibility, literally.
Hahs.
Talked a lot, and laughed a lot. Really relaxed a lot compared
to last week.
Last week was Rank and Badge presentation,
And I didn't screw up, YAY.
I really thought a lot these days.
Be it Friends, School, Relationships, etc.
Whats the point of being so down and frustrated over you ?
Whats the point of crying and being such an idiot all e' time ?
Whats the bloody point ?
Talking about school.
I'm frigging pissed with Mr Tan last Saturday.
Like seriously.
I was so damn angry, frustrated.
I actually talked back to him.
Look, i'm tired okay. I'm TIRED.
I'll actually lose my sanity before the exams.
Can't wait for NP to resume.
Can destress.
Preparing for next year's speech day.
Can't wait, and yes.
Its armsdrill training again :D
Woohoo.

Imagine, feeling all upset.

And turning back, there's no one there for you.

Its that feeling.

2008-09-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

Today marks the standing down of NPCC because of exams.
I sat in for Emcee again.
BUTBUT. This time i did it right. HAHAS.
Speech day is coming, and we're gonna train hard ! :D
P.E was like " what a drag ! "
I mean, seriously.
But got to finish my conversation with JP though.
I asked JP, would she love a person who doesn't like her back ?
She said, if he makes her sad all the time, she would give up.
Though she would be sad and would cry for awhile.
But does that make everything blow over ?
I don't think so.
Even how hard i'd try to cry, my tears ain't fallin'.
Because of you, i am afraid.
We're as good as strangers.
Agree ?
Though i have no right to judge people.
I don't like people to judge Academic people as well.
You think we don't have the capability to do something?
If you're so smart and think you're so big shot,
Then why aren't you doing it ?
Please think thrice about judging people.
If you're so all THAT,
Go join Miss/Mr Congeniality or whatever.
Because people like you, don't even deserve my attention.
Neither do you deserve me writing about you.
Grrs.
*Not pointing to anyone in particular. This is for Maria.
------------------------------------------------
So moody these few days.
So indifferent to the surroundings.
Like i said, i don't care.
I don't give a damn anymore.
A bitch ? You don't deserve that title.
I apologise for my rudeness in this post.
Though it came from the bottom of my heart.
Want to be so judgemental,
the first person you ought to judge is,
none other than yourself.
I don't even think you would understand,
So just forget it.
Tomorrow there's extra lessons.
Thanks to Mr tan.
And i'm having a mock exam tmr.
My last chance for my Amaths to pass.
I'm gonna sleep late anyway. Mmph.

" Baby i said, Please stay,

Give our love a chance for one more day."

2008-09-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

Watched S.A subbed.
Mmph. Superb ending, expected.
Today had English oral.
Nothing to worry about i guess.
And i officially ran out of wine.
I'm tired.
Tired of everything.
Gomenasai, for giving you so much trouble.
But, i guess.
This is the end.

I know i've let you down.

2008-09-17T23:08:00.002+08:00

Okay. It seemed like i abandoned my blog.
Anyway, tomorrow's oral, at least not chinese.
Finished watching vampire knight in 2 days.
Slow, i know. No anime to watch please.
Watched S.A already.
SERIOUSLY RECOMMEND TO ALL ANIME FREAKS LIKE ME OUT THERE ! :DD
Watching Hell girl now.
I don't have any mood to study.
Especially when i keep drinking wine.
Thanks to me, my bottle of wine is finishing.
Great.
Whats the best way to get rid of my troubles ?
That, i ask myself.
Are you afraid of getting hurt ?
Then, what bout' me ?

2008-09-14T21:45:00.003+08:00

Okay, i know my blog is rotting like god knows what.
Anyway, If i'm ever going Zhu hai again,
i'l splurge on anime dvds and vcds man.
Special A is a superb anime.
5 thumbs up ! That is, if i had that many. LOL.
Mr Tan keeps flooding us with homework.
Hope i can keep my place in 4A1.
Though i only failed POA, my grades ain't that fantastic.
Friday was cool.
The only training where we had about 1 and a half hours of break.
Since its only those not promoted tested.
Played volleyball, captain's ball, all sorts of things.
Like seriously, it was really that boring.
Okay. I can't believe i'm not studying these days.
I'm so gonna flunk my A maths and POA.
Kudos to me then.
Someone, give me motivation please !
Argh.
Ciaos.

2008-09-08T02:52:00.002+08:00

Today celebrated Daddy's birthday in advance at Vienna.
Wasn't really a fun day though.
I've lost my ring,
to be exact, i knew i dropped it.
But i didn't want to pick it up.
Anyway. This marks e' end of the Sept. holidays.
For all those with prelims, Gambate.
Ciaos.

zutto zutto daisuki.

2008-09-07T02:39:00.002+08:00

It seemed like a thousand years since i last blogged.
Well, now's 2.39 am.
I wonder whats wrong with my eyesight.
Its like i can't see that clearly or accurately anymore.
Maybe my degree increased.
Anyway. Sorry for the lack of updates.
The one week break is ending.
And i didn't even study during this break.
Or rather, been playing my laptop all this while, no ?
Guilty please.
Okays, my eyes are giving me a headache.
Today spent half the day printing out lyrics and arranging.
Waste ink. Lol.
Watched TsubasaRC, theres no season 3 i think.
So sad please, really.
Now, i'm lacking of anime to watch.
Since DGM and NS only come out once a week.
Which is so sickening.
I'll go watch Taiwan dramas then.
Lol. But though i'm back in maple,
I'll stop for awhile, and study for a lil.
Pass POA man, if not my report card is gonna be UGLY.
Oh well. Tomorrow going Vienna to celebrate,
Daddy's Bday in advance.
Hope can shop a lil'.
Alrights. Ciaos.

Yume 'no Tsubasa

mata a'shita

2008-09-05T05:04:00.003+08:00

Why love someone who treats you like something convenient ?
When they need you, they'll find you.
When you're not needed, then, goodbye.
Is this some kind of joke ?
I hope not.
Fate never let me chose whether i wanted to love you or not.
Who would want to choose such a painful choice ?
Well. Anyway, its 5.06am.
Im turning in.
Ciaos.

2008-09-04T03:14:00.002+08:00

Frankly speaking, I'm feeling miserable.

2008-09-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

If i could really make you change your mind, i'll do anything.
But the problem is, you have already given up on me.
We've come to a stage where there's no turning back.
I don't want to hear lies.
I'd rather hear the truth.
How do you feel about me ?
What are you thinking ?
I simply don't know.

2008-08-29T02:18:00.002+08:00

Spent the whole day making cookies.
Tmr's teacher's day.
Teachers should feel fortunate okay !
I burnt my hand please -.-
Hahas !
One week holiday ain't holiday.
T.T
alrights. I'm sleepy.
Ciaos.

I don't wanna walk alone,

I wanna walk with you.

2008-08-28T01:07:00.002+08:00

I finally downloaded maple in my laptop.
And woohoo !
It finally worked. Duh.
And it feels so "shiok" to be able to play again.
But not that often la.
Studies come first.
Hahas.
I'm desperate for A cash alrights -.-
Our POA teacher left la.
I'm so happy can, BUT.
I think mdm reps is gonna take over.
Man, no more slacking -.-
So much homework this few days.
Stress la.
Haiz. And kailun, if you want a cookie, just say laa. !~~
Hahas! :X
Alrights, i'm turning in.
Ciaos people.
mata' ashita :D

喜欢的,还是你.

爱的,还是你.

2008-08-26T23:18:00.002+08:00

I don't know why i'm so anxious about my poly life.
LOL. I don't know.
It suddenly popped into my mind.
I decided to take BLT.
Concerning medical science.
Well, i am going to be a doctor anyway.
Baked cookies today. M&M leh !
:D
For teacher's day.
But if you guys want some, text me luh.
Then i'll bring extra on teacher's day :D
Lol. So tired.
I've been cooking the whole day.
I wanna bake cakeeeee.
URGH.
Ciaos.

I'm not going to the same place because of you,

but because of my dreams.

2008-08-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

Okay, when Jo ping told me that only JC could take doctor courses,
I was like *shit, i'm dead.
But no la.
I was surfing the polytechnic websites.
And i decided to take bio ! :D
Though i know mdm koh don't allow it.
I'm gonna study and sit for the Bio O' lvl paper as a private candidate.
That is, if she doesn't allow me la.
Since i suck at POA, might as well right. Lol.
Big ambitions la please.
I think mdm koh won't allow me to drop POA, 95% confirm.
But she will allow me to take Bio, i hope. Lol.
I'm not planning to be an accountant so yeah.
Seriously, i'll beg her if necessary. HAHAS.
I'm soo desprate to become a doctor alrights. :P
Lucky i'm not afraid of blood .
Urgh, must mugmugmug.
Even thought of going back maple lohs.
Bio is such a thrilling subject,
don't take it, wasted la ! :D
Lol. Anyways !
Went out with Joping to Sembawang.
Spent 20 bucks please.
Urgh. Lol. Bitched around la.
As in, gossipping.
Hahas ! Baking cookies /cake for teacher's day.
Hmm.. ?
Lol. Don't know which to decide la.
Okays, Ciaos !

Competition

2008-08-22T23:34:00.004+08:00

After e' campfire
Spongebob ! :DD

Me and Deb :D

Woah. I didn't expect that i would be the Vice-chairperson man.

Was so shocked .

Say hello to proposals again. Lol.

Anyway, Grats to Hongsiang on being Chairperson :D

Last night's campfire was alright i guess.

Totally different from Np.

New experience though.

The spongebob thingy was really cute.

Went home late about 0830.

Training yesterday was alright.

Everyone in the squad seem to be coughing. Hahas !

Now i cought the virus too,

but mine's the Flu virus, i keep sneezing la ! T.T

Now, i'm not the Sec 2 IC anymore.

Suling and kin loong, take care of them yahs ?

Though i spent little time with them,

know them a little better,

i missed them.

Though a lil' mischievious, but its okay. Hahas.

Maybe a sense of attachment?

Oh well, i'll be taking over sec 1 2oo9, so yeahs.

Bye sec 2s. Lol.

Seriously, my laptop is crashing.

Yesterday i tried to update, and in the end,

Before i even write a word, it auto shut downs.

Lol. Now seemed a lil' better, cause i deleted e' viruses.

I think i'm dropping POA.

I hope Mdm Koh allows me to take Literature.

I feel so sick right now. Urgh .

I want my specs.

I can't see clearly.

Anyways, 3A1 's CME rocks please.

Lol. West uploaded it on youtube.

Alrights.

Ciaos !

A new day, a new adventure.

A new beginning.

2008-08-20T01:08:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Debbi ! :D

Alrights. This is a short post okay.
I miss you,
And i love you Boy.
):

没你的夜星星都不再耀眼,

没你的天只剩灰色一片.

你一直在我的梦里出现,

我的伤心你总是视而不见.

2008-08-17T21:36:00.001+08:00

Current mood: Foul
Why: Because some fcking idiot dropped my PSP and my PHONE.

I'm frigging pissed off right now.
URGH.

2008-08-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

又何必在乎它以後屬於誰呢 ?
Bonjour people.
Well, i finally said it..
I thought it through for so long.
I decided, to let go.
No point holding on since there ain't any answer.
Though it hurts,
After crying it all out,
I should feel all better i guess.
Okay.
I feel so indifferent right now.
I don't feel like talking.
I'll take Yewfai's advice.
I'll go stare at the wall.
Ciaos.
):

也许你已经放弃我,也许已经很难回头.

就算没有结果,我也能够承受.

如果要走,请你记得我.

ILY. x/3

2008-08-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people.
Actually i'm not really in e' mood to blog right now.
But it seems there's nowhere else i could litter my trash except here.
I've been runnin' around e' whole day.
I'm dead tired.
But these thoughts keep popping up in my mind.

Its already e' EOY.

I'm gonna get 5A1s.

I'm prepared to fail POA, so yeah.

Right now, i feel like going to the beach.

I'm too frustrated to do anything right now.

I need to cool my head and think.

My laptop is lagging real bad, its damn irritating.

My mood is swinging real badly these days.

Reminiscing, Its just You, You and You.

All i could ever lean on, literally, is my pillow.

Today, i prayed exceptionally hard.

Like never before.

God, answer me.

I could say : " i need a shoulder",

But, i can't.

2008-08-12T23:15:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people.
Today was such a boring day.
Seriously.
Only Uploading songs and thats all.
I think Sisi, Sasori and Cindy now drinking Pulau Ubin's chlorine water.
HAHA.
Sisi's so gonna kill me when she gets back.
And and and.
Is that really ben hum on my tagboard ? :P
omgomgomg. HAHAS !
Now i'm crazy over CSS again. LOL.
okok. Buck up.
If not i'll fail EOYE.
diediedie. choy.
Lol. Alrights.

Ciao !

Its been approximately 3 months,

since we last spoke to each other. ):

2008-08-11T18:46:00.003+08:00

My cousins
Regina and me :D

Bonjour people !

I'm back !

Lol. This was a fun trip.

Though its only for 3 days 2 nights.

I sat Flying coaster like 3-4 times can !

HAHA. Now i'm not afraid anymore. LOL.

Genting really changed a lot.

Bumcity didn't have as much things as it used to have the previous time i went.

Sorry peeps.

Didn't buy anything for most of you guys.

Simply nothing to buy there.

Though, i bought Evan Yo's new album there,

And Two sasuke keychains. HAHAS.

Couldn't find the PHD hoodie Madara wanted, so din buy anything.

And is lime green so OOF in Genting ?

Lol. Sorry guys.

Took lotsa pics, but i'm lazy to upload em' all.

And by e' way.

Watched Dark Knight.

Was a fan-tabulous movie.

I'll rate it 5/5 stars.

Hahas. Alrights.

Ciaos !

我还是介意你的话, 总在无意间变化.

介意你对爱的想法,和我有了分岔.

我介意你没忘了她,介意你还放不下.

2008-08-08T18:09:00.004+08:00

Our very own Uchiha Madara and Deidara :D

Deidara: Talk to my hand !

Madara: BANG*

He's Itachi, And I'm Sasuke!

And we are the Uchiha Clan ! :D

And look.

Its PC Sasori and Uchiha Itachi.

HAHA.

Bonjour people ! :D
Look, aww. Lol.
So sweet right ! Thats before the NDP Parade.

Hahas, today came home at about 10am.

Super early dao, i don't know what to do. Lol.

Going Genting tonight.

So don't text or call me please.

I won't entertain.
Woohooo. SHOPPING :D

Hahas.

3A1 has the most Akatsuki and Uchiha members please. :X

Okay thats lamee.

Okay, i'll stop here yah.

Ciaos !

But sometimes, it ain't that easy boy.

2008-08-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

Kah yarn, Canice, Me, Wei en

Bonjour people !

I'm back from OBS.

Okay, it was a fun but tiring experience.

I can't really say that i regretted going. LOL.

I'm glad that i was in the same group as the three peeps up there.

Hahas. All e' fun we had as a group.

Go AMUNDSEN ! :DD

And, at the Jetty, all i missed was Bibi. ):

Aww man.

And i miss Singapore ! :D ,

Erm, as in my house. Yeah.

Anyways. I'm tanned.

Missed everyone. Haiz.

Hahas. And Jetty jump rocks big time la.

Though i was scared, i jumped. LOL.

Going Genting this Friday, WOO HOO !

Miss me again people !

Bought 2 OBS shirt for myself.

One for Wesley and one for Dexter.

Since they paid me already. Lol.

Kayaking was so so so fun, but tiring. LOL.

Hilarious things happened, HAHAS !

Land Expedition was such a drag ! OMGOMG.

But we sang lotsa shit songs. HAHAS .

The scenery was so beautiful.

It was marvellous, splendid. LOL.

And anyways. Northview had meetings at night.

HAHAS.

Didn't know bitching with Ernest, Wei en, Canice, Kah Yarn, Junjun, Hilmy, Hairee, Gary, Yuting, and Brandon was so fun please.

Strangely, I was clicking with e' express people.

Anyways. On the last night.

Someone said he saw smth at e' beach.

Like omg la, i was so effing scared.

I practically grabbed Canice's hand damn tightly.

And suddenly a stupid python came out of 'e ocean onto the beach.

Everyone was like screaming. Lol.

Not something you see everyday eh ?

Anyways, we had to shift our tents back to where it was supposed to be before.

HAHAS. And and and.

I frigging tio lotsa sand flies, and mosquitos.

oh man.

Damage my beautiful skin. -.-

HAHAS ! Crap.

Okok. Fine. I'll stop my rantings here.

Ciaos people !

And i thought and i thought,

what a drag.

2008-07-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

Isn't he 'e sweetest thing. LOL.

Watched They kissed again 2.

Then got addicted to this guy. So cute la please.

And i promised myself,

I'm gonna marry a doctor. HAHAS !

Oh and i'm gonna be one myself.

Okays.

What time is it ?

Its too early to dream la. LOL .

Going OBS tmr.

Hope i stick to daphne.

If not i'll die there. LOL !

Well, bye lappy.

I'll miss you.

And i'd swear i'll kiss you 'e moment i reach home :D

Lol.

Okays. turning in.

Ciaos !

2008-07-25T01:49:00.002+08:00

Now is 1.49am.
I slept at 4.30am yesterday.
So i just slept for 2 and a half hours.
No energy to do anything la.
Now my eyes are swollen.
Haiz.
If you said you were tired
Please, im also tired.
Not physically, but mentally.
Watching "They kissed again 2" every night isn't gonna help.
Cry cry cry,
In the end, eye swollen, no energy.
Moody.
This saturday's housewarming.
I have no mood for it.
I'd rather not have it this week.
So tired.
I asked myself today,
Why did i break that promise to you in the first place?
Or i should say, why should i make that promise to you in the first place?
And i found out,
I couldn't answer myself.

Daisuki deshou.

2008-07-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

Today was so-so.
Well, from what i know.
My days are never great Or splendid.
Before recess was still alright.
Played Naruto in class since Mr tan wasn't in.
I don't know what struck me during recess.
I felt so down.
I felt like as if i can sit at the concourse staring, like forever,
And i asked myself.
Is it even worth it ?
What am i doing ?
My grades are plunging.
And what have i done to make up for it.
Today Mr bala returned the test papers.
As expected, i did badly.
He said to me,
"You're a top student, and you should maintain that top student standard. "
And i told myself, yes i have to.
I know i should.
If not my future will be over.
So many things happened.
When God gives you something,
He will take another thing from you.
So that its fair to everyone.
I can't really say that God is being unfair to me.
I think i'm being unfair to myself.
Hah. Some people work and get what they deserve.
But some people work, yes.
But don't get anything at all.
This is just what i feel randomly.
People experience and learn from it.
Once bitten twice shy.
I was bitten once, and i got bitten again.
Isn't that a joke ?
When you said you loved me,
All i ever thought was.
"This is just a lie".
And in the end, i lied to myself.
Telling myself that this is true,
But now, its too good to be true.
I just never learn my lesson.
No matter how i tried to forget you.
I just realise i couldn't.
And everything's changing, when i turn around.

watashi no' sekai,

i hate it.

2008-07-23T01:22:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired.
Well. I don't know.
My life is practically worthless la okays.
I don't know. I feel this way.
And punching seem to feel as great as it used to be.
Next week's OBS.
I'm a lil' reluctant to go.
EH, 7th month leh people.
Lol. Oh well, whatever.
I'm tired.
Gonna sleep now.

Ciaos.

Matters of e' heart cannot be solved by someone else except yourself.