i just dont care anymore alrights ? like why did i even go through all this trouble. and one more thing , what had shawn done !? stupid spammers. so idiotic cans. don't know how to get a life den dont la. keep spamming. its not even their blog lohrs. like what the hell ? those who dont like shawn please just keep it to yourself and like just shut up la. im already very stressed and all these problems dont help in any other way at all. you suck. he suck. she sucks. i suck. eveything SUCKS. why did everything happen in the first place, why did i even met you ? as if giving me false hope wasn't enough.making me fall for you was even more ridiculous. if i had a chance for a transfer, i would. getting away from all those memories, painful ones. since when i had happy ones ? oh. like NEVER ? the world is turning topsy turvy. why cant everyone like GET A LIFE ? why cant we choose our own fates ? WHY ?!

SHAWN rocks to me . if he doesn't to you , thats like not my problem cans ? im so fed up with the spammers, stupid, stupid STUPID! AND like why can't those spammers leave him alone ? ANTI-SHAWN? what the hell. why cant they be ANTI - themselves ? so sickening. it just feels at all like nobody cares . and its true. NOBODY DOES. and if i want to cut, no one can stop me. EVEN YOU. SORRY . but im like really in a foul mood right now and i don't feel like talking.

why can't he like understand that i really LOVE him. when i wanted to let go, poof. there u are. appearing in front of my face. i just cant help it .