The Most Important Decision ;

I just made up my mind about 5 days ago to go express. Even if it means pang seh-ing my friends, i have to at least do it for MY future, i don't know how or what the outcome will be like but im determined to go to a better class next year. And at least prove to my teacher that i have not made the wrong decision. Maybe i would not be welcomed in express? Wells, i have to try to find out then, reallly really hope that Mr Yeo or Mdm Koh would grant me the appeal, since mdm roszana said it wasn't the criteria. Wells, i have to strive for it then. No Choice. Well, PRAY FOR ME GUYS ! Kambate ! Zettai Daijoubu ! (: To be frank, im super duper scared. HELP me ! :X

Just came back from Genting yesterday. Didn't really enjoy this trip. Just Kbox, themepark and shop. Boring la. Had Pds today, the Zul and Gul very funny la. Zul keep saying " hahas ! JACK ! " lol. Super diao okay. Played stress and was really STRESS okay ! The Zul was like passing the " suay" to me la. Then was really suay.LOL. DeeDee was like uh, being gay la. hahas ! So so SORRY cons darling din pei you go eat long john. Tomorrow Go eat short jack. :X hahas ! If Zul was here, he would say "HAHAS ! JACKED !" heehees, thats all for today. Mata Ashita ~ :D

Ahh ! Im so gonna use the rifle and BANG myself la. Only like o.o7% to express. What the hell, mum is gonna nag and nag again. Aiyas. But im proud to be in 3A1 next year. Through train here i come ! (: Had PDS just now and yesterday, practically the whole week. Tomorrow going Genting, so if you sms me then good luck to your bill. Now, my only wish is for him to come back next year and become a CI. I just hope that he would do this favour for me. And like WHAT THE HELL ! Next monday PDS suppose to go to NBPS, my primary school ! Sisi ! You ah, don't cork up hohr ! Later i poke your backside ahr. Heehees ! Okays. now right, Yew fai encouraged me to go express, its kindda a yes and a no answer, yes because promoted ma ! (: den no cos later no edusave money (x hahas ! okay, any suggestions PLEASE PLEASE suggest it to me in tag board. thank you very much. BYEE !

SERIOUSLY, I HATE YOU GIRL. I JUST CAN'T STAND YOU. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.

BUSYBUSYBUSY !
wah sehs. these few weeks busy like shit liddat. don't even have time to rest. when everyone is like at home sleeping or playing during marking day, im like in school with constance, and a few others.

its like so stupid la. yesterday and today had kayaking course, tiring la. i kanna suntan like singapore flag liddat, now my leg two different colours. got sunburn too, like a bangala liddat. pain too. lol. don't know whether going for 2star next year. but i passed 1star ! (: bwuahhas. our instructor so funny la.hahaas, i super super dont like capsizing, i though i was gonna die there la. but too bad i didn't. but overall it was fun la. having pds tmr and duno when. funfunfun ! even though everywhere is going to ache. i think when i go to genting this sat my hand already paralysed, but doing all this things help me gain muscles. and im so glad. hahas.i just lovee holding rifles. (: heehees.i thought i lost it but i found it again.lol. just now walked home with sisi, went to coffee shop to buy pau, aiya. hungry ma ! den walk to yp and eat. den eat halfway suddenly gt monkey. =x stupid la. they saw plastic bag tot gt food, den they start going after people. lol. im sure that u all thought that the monkey went after us right ? sad to say, i spotted the monkey. hahas ! den i gan chiong, keep the pau in the bag. ^^ den sisi also keep. hahas ! den faster walk. woots! the kids have E-S-C-A-P-E-D. hahas ! =x

wells. you only look for my company when you have no one to talk to and when you are bored. so please la. im not a toy, i won't allow myself to be messed with.

p.s. to smone. please don't copy my style la. if you dont understand what is copyright, den please go read the dictionary. stop being a flirt and act cute when you are even not ok.and if you think u are being kind and helping your " friend " , wake up and look. don't only listen to one side of the situation and talk crap about the other. shit la. realise it sooner better than to regret it later. you are just not working your brain. and don't copy other people's way of doing things la. you are not being noble alrights. you are being stupid. and you are telling others that.tresure what you have now, if you lose it later, don't come crying la.

yesterday? terrible day. started off with stupid golf, but i think today's activity was quite fun. instructor quite nice (8 hahaas. but then i rather not play because so many things had happened. precisely thats the case. if i had not played the game, the fight would not had started, its my fault right? whatever. constant reminder, those who think what i said was wrong, feel free to ask me. i have no time to check spams on my tagboard. its so stupid. the whole thing was pang seh here and there, i mean like, build a bridge and get over it ? yeah. and so thats what happened today. next i have to comment on this, i have no patience to so whatever craps that happen around me. yesterday was like UH ! stupid stupid stupid. why do parents like to nag? i seriously seriously DON'T GET IT ! its not their life right? its MINE ! grr. so damn fed up. BLAH ! don't think that we are related and you have to treat me with no respect at all. so what if im using the laptop? SO WHAT. its like first come first serve policy okays. i don't have time to deal with your nonsense alrights. i rather concentrate on youtube and finish what im suppose to finish. and you have to go shouting here and there, hello, want me to get more fed up issit? so irritating. like what the hell la. sometimes i feel like punching you la. get a grip ok. so what if you are older? that doesn't make you any smarter or better. i've been patient for like damn long. and i didn't blast at your ears already let you off lehr ok. you want to challenge me to the game of being who is more SARCASTIC, den you better prepare to get shut off. because you had not seen the sacarstic side of me yet. you use sacarstic words at the wrong time and it doesn't occur to you that you would hurt other people's feelings? wake up from your dream okays, my business is none of your business at all. you want to poke your nose into other people's business, mind your own first. same goes to you. if you know who. i won't reveal your name. hyprocrite. i regretted having you as my friend in the first place. well, i've seen enough.

today's talk was meaningful, well. brighten up people ! breaking up is not the end of the world, well, maybe. =x hahaas ! omg la. friday gt cca liaus. retest for campcraft and corporal test. OMGG!! must study ! (: mata ashita !

the previous post wasn't to point at anyone or anything. if whoever is not happy to see or read it, then please leave. heard of post exam stress? not due to homework, is due to parents. hahaas. just because i stick to the computer thw whole day doesn't even mean anything okays. and mummy had to like nag and nag non stop. makes me feel like punching her you know. but unfortunately, she IS my mum. kns. she was the one who said that i could play until late at night she also don't care. like what the hell la, im so fcuked up okay. you irritate me, you are so so so gonna get it.

you don't have anything to say rights ? don't pretend that you didn't know but yet you know who im talking about, quit acting like a jerk alrights, you are still not forgiven yet.

two weeks later going to genting (: release stress ! bwuahhas. anyone msg me at that moment then, good luck to you la. i wont reply but your bill goes HIGH HIGH HIGH ! will get some goodies for my best buds. hahas, im bias la i know. oh oh and anyone if i forgot your birthday or smth, gomenasai. i hav STM :D ok. mata ashita !

EXAMS ARE OVERRR (:

hahas! now can slack after all that mugging. so tired la. but for the sake of youtubing, its worth it ! hahas. all papers were ok-ok. just that the maths paper 1 was a little hard. stupid mr tan ! =p okay, sorry. a little excited about the holidays, lol. wells broading over some issues lately. i rather people tell me the truth then to tell me the lies. who doesn't? i knew you since i was a kid, you should know me right? but then so what? if you are gonna carry on like this, its not going to work out. now, i feel like i dont even know you, its not me who changed, its you.

爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美 ?

也许陌生到了解 让我来当你的谁 ?

everyone changes sometimes. but i still dont understand.stupidstupidstupid. keeping you is like keeping myself. i simply can't breathe. i love you is just simply 3words8letters, with no meaning at all. its for the best i guess. we are just not happy together, now, i rather concentrate on going to a better class, and not worrying about all this things. lifting the burden off my shoulders. wow. it feels so great.

不用陪我走到最后,

我承担不起你 的承诺.

does waiting even help? i hopelessly waited for almost two years, and you give me that stupid promise of yours and break it soon after. what is this ? i love and i hate you. i just don't know why. you could make me happy in an instant, nobody could make this happen. simply saying, you were my best memories. last years jumble sale was marked the happiest day of my life. the minute i thought i found love, you smashed it into pieces.and nobody could mend it anymore. i lived in darkness for almost 2 years, stress, friendship, they are getting on my nerves.

记得爱 是我给过的答案,

就不再　考虑应该不应该.

from today onwards, im gonna live my life my own way, not in the control of anyone, its MY life. and im so happy that i came into northview, fate allowed me to see him, my friends. and somehow i regretted though. uneccessary issues could be avoided. but its all in the past now. i decided to throw away my past, treat it like it did not happen, and smile like nothing's wrong (: to my faithful readerrs. thank you for visiting my blog all this while (: arigatou .

HAPPYYY ISSUES (:

HAHAAS ! im like YOUTUBE-ING. watching animes. ok. report. LOL.

-D GRAY MAN; currently 51 episodes in 3 days. waiting for the rest to load.

-DN ANGEL; 2 days to finish 26 episodes .

-DEARBOYS; 2days to finish 25 episodes.

CURRENTLY WATCHING:

-AIR

-DA CAPO

-CLANNAD

&many more. lazy to name.LOL.

hmm. probably can finish during holidays(: LOL. im staying at home to chiong. MAPLE ! later den go play la. abit sian. hahas. and oh oh !

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO DEYAO ER ZI (:

mummy loves you ! (: hahaas. can't actually believe wesley watching elfen lied . hohr hohr ! EVIL EVIL ! lmaos ! okay. i shutup xD lol. just love watching cute anime cartoons. LOL. maybe i was a japanese in my past life. heeehees ! how cool la. i want to learn language for CIP (: SISI ! why don we choose that ?? hahaas. anyways, my sis and i called each other stupid names la. LOL. she called BAKA, [ idiot; stupid ] and im called TAKO (: [ octopus ] LOL. kindda cute though. hahas. i watch dearboys and im like getting addicted to basketball lahrs. deargirls and dearboys, i rmb the times in primary school , i miss you guys ! Yan yan evil evil ! din go back on teacher's day. hmm. nxt time i drag u go =x LOL. OK FINE !! it ends here for now (: back to youtube-ing. bwuhahahs ! MATA ASHITA ! (:

like what the hell la? mum chnaged my fone plan to 1000 sms and 100 min free calls. er, but so what, due in like 9 months lahrs. stupid right ? grr. hahas. friday went to cut hair ? er. doesn't make a diff actually la. lol .im gonna die of exams already ! [x ahhr, cant take it liaus la. but then. daijoubu rights? hahahs. yeahs, i know (: hmm..

actually it doesn't matter whether that person really likes you or he likes smone else, what matters is that you love the person right ? and if you really love him, let him go and wish him well (: thats what i told myself. giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. i think thats meaningful though,if you can go for someone better, why not ? chances only come once, never again.

and OH OH OH ! im so addicted to -

-D GRAY MAN

-DN ANGEL

-CLANNAD (: sure min yi and yan yan will rmb this :D FURUKAWA NAGISA ! (:

sakagami tomoyo rocks ! hahahs. DEARGIRLS . lol. REMINISCING THE PAST.

it really doesn't matter now, does it ? so what if its true ? so wad if its for real ? and so what if you mean ? maybe you just dont understand. wells. studies first bahr. no time to think of all this stuff. wells ! let me write smth ..

TO ALL MY BELOVED FRIENDS [: WISH YOU GOOD LUCK IN ALL YOUR SUBJECTS. BETTER PASS HOHR. IF NOT I WHACK YOUR PI GU (x

especially debbi .iwan yonghe, noreen, roxanne, ser ting and MY WHOLE CLASS ! please KAMBATE ! (:

"ZETTAI DAIJOUBU [: "

madelineee-

wells. to start off with, sorry for not posting so long. hmm. hahaas. anyways. exams are here, to my faithful readers, thank you for visiting anyway.yeahs.

i know that it hurts. and you are not the only one feeling the pain here. i am too. if fate allows, god will let the sun shine on us again. now its not the time for all this. its exams and it matters to me more than anything else.even though im like slacking for the past few days watching youtube =x this matter i dont want to talk about it anymores, its kind off breaking my nerves in my brain. -.-

im very glad that god let me meet all my friends, who were always there by my side, debbilicious, constance, sisi, noreen, and all you guys. even though nvss brought me many bad memories, it still leaves me the beautiful and unforgetable memories. i miss debbi, and i miss everyone. would my life twist if i had not entered nvss ? sometimes it makes me wonder a lot. i miss my graduated seniors, i miss my cca, i miss everything. those wonderful memories, i want them again . if i had a chance to go back to the past, i would never erase them. (:

wells. kambate guys. sec 4's, good luck in o levels, dowan see you next year wohr. (x

sec 3's, work hard la. mai slackk =x sec 2's , wells. duno how i would do also. but kambate ! (:

sec 1's , to cheryl and iris, KAMBATE ! :D lol.

" I LOVE YOU " is just a word with no meaning in it. if you dont even mean it, then please don't say it. it will hurt that person a lot. please go through your head and think . dont be a BAKA . [: "