我如何假装我心里不再有你 ?

Physically, emotionally, and mentally.
Hurt.

Anyways. Im so gonna fail my Emaths test.
Die. Lol. I did like only one quetion then leave the rest blank.
Don't understand why ppl say Amaths is tougher.
Its the opposite luh can.
I gt a bit of confidence.
Just a bit that i will score full marks for a maths.
Hahas ! Nahs. Lol. Im a dumb person.
Who makes careless mistakes. Geesh.
Hahas.Im flunking POA, physics and chem, i think -.-
The teacher all like . eeks.
Lol.
Its swollen. -.- knn.
Zzz. Hahas.
im a retard doing retarded things.
Anyways. Post duno how many times le -.-
So yeahs. Going to update tmr. Heehees.
Ciaos.

Does it matter ?

campcraft on that day woke me up.

why should anybody get hurt at all ?

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How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had?

Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine?

Why is it I miss someone I was never really with?

And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine ?

Is there really nothing worth waiting for ?
I don't believe it.
And i already know that its not possible.
But then.
Im not expecting you to Love me back or anything.
Im just not expecting anything.


Anyways, yesterday benben talked to me on msn.
He seemed damn depressed. Lol.
Its called " shi lian le. "
Then i was like. " i know how u feel ".
Lol. He says im too young.
Which is like. No ?
Anyways, continue. Lol.
Me: eh ? got gf eh ? Lol:X
Him: no la. but lots of ex . but now got very heartbreaking one.
* DIAOS. *
Me: okays. hahas. so what happened ? You broke up :X ?
Him: You gt bf ah ?
Me: like no ? Its called loving, aka. "crushing " -.-
Him: ohs. smone you like a lot ?
Me: LIKE DUH.
Him: you don't know how i feel man.
Me: i know.
Him: eh ? tell me how i feel .
Me: its like your heart is broken into pieces which cannot be broken down further.
Him:Then why ure heart broken 0.0
Me: Cos he gt stead ma . Lol. Nvm la.
Him:Ohhs.. Lol.
Me: saying " im happy for you" to him really takes lots of courage. Yeahs. -.-
Him: Hahas. haiz.
Me: if you really love someone, you should let them go.
Him:GOSH. that coming from my 15 year old cousin is really something.
Me : Lol ?! diaos 0.0 .
Him: and i know your generation all use the word " stead"
Me: yeah. then u use what 0.0
Me: its like. i'd rather the person i love to be happy with smone else than to be unhappy with me.
Him: yeahs. true enough.
Me: Isn't so ? *{ quoting from stupid POA teacher } Lol !!!
Him: Its hard i guess to do that.
Me: Like duh. Of course. I cried u see. -.-
Him: gosh. you really love him eh ?
Me: Like duh . Lol. How bout u. Tell me what happened 0.0
Him: we were never really officially together u see..
Me: Huh, did u ask her for stead ?
Him: Yes i did.
Me: But you love her right ?
Him: with everything i have.
pause. So sweet cans ? LOl. play. :X
Fast forward. ~~~~~~
Me: there are many girls out there u see.
Him: thats the problem. I don't want any other girls.
Me: thats the problem with me also wad. I dont want any other guys.
Him: Hahas. perhaps im waiting for the day that she will love me back..
Me: Hahas. Me too.. That is if its even possible between me and him.
Him: Hahas. Yeahs, hope so too.
Me: Lol. I don't mind waiting la u see. Lol.
Me : anyway, i go sleep le. anything call me/sms me. :D
Him: Okays. Nites.
Me: anw good luck on exams tmr.
Him: thanks. Hahas.
Me: dont think so much yeahs. Its gonna be alright. Nites !

-EOC-
such a hearty talk. Lol. -.-

Somehow i can counsel ppl but i cannot counsel myself.
Its so stupid, i know.

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I just found a new way to vent anger.
Punching on a punch bag is rather useless.
So i'd decide punching the wall.
But this method is just for me.
Don't try to use it.
If i see any bruises,
I'll punch u -.-
Hahas.

Im glad that you cared.

And i just hope that feeling never ends.

:DD

Hello ! Hahas.

Happy Valentines Day to all. (:

And to all to had a happy time, grats ! :D

Lol. Once again, love you guys !

Hahas. Im going to puke from all the food that i ate just now.

Nevertheless, thank you officers !

Hahas. And thanks to those who gave me presents.

Love you guys loads. :DD

And yeahs. As friends only la -.-

Hahas. Exception for retarded boy ^^

Lol. :XX

Thanks..

Debbi for that cute little box. Love it man (:

Noreen for that cute cute flower :D Loves !

Cindy for the Nike waterbottle. Hahas. Thanks girl !

Yewfai for that cute hedgehog. Hope you love tigger too. Lol.

And for ppl who misunderstand,

whats wrong with giving a friend a present -.-

Geesh,cheers anyways ! :D

And finally !

Sisi for that cute sheep which i named : " BAA -- ABBB "

I bet you guys duno how to pronounce its name ^^

Love you girl ! :DDD

Okays. That was a long speech.

Anyways. I did celebrate Valentines day.

Lol. Not with anybody,

But with my favourite CIs and Cadets :DD

Hearts ! (:

To those out there,

Valentine's day is not just on the 14th Feb.

Its Everyday for those who Love each other. (:

Its crucial, Choosing Chairperson and all.

But whats the point of being enthusiastic,

at the last moment when it isn't real?

Seriously don't like this kind of ppl.

Really doesn't show your own potential.

Im not pointing to anyone out there.

And ppl are really starting to throw attitude now.

And i seriously don't give a damn. -.-

Hahas. Craps.

Got cut by a piece of glass luh.

Doesn't matter pain or not luh.

Its no difference to me anyway.

Anyways ! Had to salute like three times today.

Cos Frigging Koh was like : Not good ! sing again -.-

Knn. Hahas. So yeahs. Today pt was fun ! :D

I thought i was going to have to run five rounds.

But nopes. I want luh. I dowan fail 2.4.

Or should say, fail Napfa.

Its damn embarrassing.

And will drag the whole unit.

Mind you, we got a GOLD okays. :X

Hahas. This year we must get gold also.

Bwuahahas.

Im thinking emo all the time.

Im often staring into blank space.

Which is like totally retarded.

During History, Bala keep arrowing me.

So baka la cans. And yeahs.

Im looking forward to NYAA.

Im so gonna learn japanese. Lol.

Hmms. Gonna watch Dgrayman.

So YEAHS. CIAOS ! :DDD

Happy Valentine's Day Retard,

Last long with her.

ILY (:

EVAN HUBBY :DD

Okays. Today started off weird though. Lol.

And was so tired luh.

After school went to northpoint

to buy Valentines day presents for my good buds ^^

Hahas. Then went out of Northpoint left 2 bucks.

Geesh. Went outta the house with $55.

Went home With $0 .

Hahas ! Was so broke luh cans. Lol.

But quite worth it luh. Hahas !

Anyways.

Left my damn damn important file at Four Leaves.

Like wthell. Lol.

Inside got Npcc consent form and practically, EVERYTHING !

I only realised when i went up my bus -.-

Then called sisi. She went to see. It was like EH .

STILL THERE ! :DDD

OMG. Thank God and the heavens.

THANK YOU SISI !!! (:

hahas. My erzi. Evil.

Pon school then i saw him at northpoint.

Zzz. Then outside popular " LECTURING " him.

Naughty la. Better make sure he come to school tmr.

Hahas. Anyone wants Lester for Valentines ?

He says he's available.

Doing advertising for him .Lol. :XX

Ciaos.

Somehow. I don't know how to give it to you.

I LOVE YOU BOY (:

EVAN YO :DD

Im like so frigging high man.

Lol. Bought Evan Yo's album, FINALLY !

Happy ! Hahas. $20.90 okays.

IM A TOTAL EVAN YO FAN. (:

Hahas, the stupid thing is,

my cousin's at my house. AGAIN.

Hey, i don't miss you you know ! -.-

Came like 3 times or so ?

So stupid la.

Im so running outta animes to watch ?

Yeahs. 8 feb 2008. -.-

I guess 8 isn't such a lucky number after all.

So so sian.

Going down for badminton later.

So.. CIAOS ! ~ will update later.

I think. :XX

Boy, I love you ! :DD

EVAN YO ! :DDD

Omgosh, hahas. Found many Evan Yo's Picture.

GOSH ! Hurhurs. Anyways, It was over 200+ pictures.

So yeahs. Hahas, eyes still pain though.

Can't See clearly, so wearing my specs now (:

Heehees. Evan yo rocks okays ? Lol.

Of course la, my hubby leh.

Hahas. Yeah. Kindda emo.

Lol. Anyways, went to popular just now.

Was kindda crowded. Hahas.

Haiz. Lol. Gonna sleep early.

Painful eyes, and gonna wake up early tmr.

Sad.Lol. But ! Eating Buffet tmr ^^

Heehees. So, thats all. (:

I Love You.

You Just Need To Understand That.

HAPPY 16th BURSTDAY BAKA :DDDDD
When i woke up this morning,
My Eyes were like damn swollen.
Computer from 9+ am- 1.00 in the morning.
Was kindda Tonning and anime-ing. Lol.
The straining + crying = Swollen eyes.
Don't try that la please.
Im so not supposed to use the computer now.
My eyesight have worsened. -.-
After giving Yew fai some advise,
He went to sleep. Baka. Lol.
I thought of going to Chan's house today,
But then.. I would have to wear sunglasses-.-
So yeah. Better not.
Today was a world record in my life.
I slept till 11.45am , Tired.. I guess.
So many things happened yesterday.
Must be damn suay or something.
I want to go kbox T.T
DESTRESS ! :XXXX
NOREEN WHERE ARE YOU ! T.T
Lol -.-

Have You ever felt your heart was breaking ?

I knew it wasn't possible from the start,

But why do these tears keep coming out ?

:DD

But,

I would still Love You ,

No matter What.

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Too Bad.

Time Machines Don't Exist At All.

Ohohs. I forgot about something since like last year i guess. Lol.

Anyways. Baka wanted me to name the top 5 cutest pop artists or smth i guess.

But. I don't care whether artist or not luh.

Lol. Here goes. :D

ACCORDING TO RANKING (:

# 1st #

Name: Xie Zheng Ting

Aka: My hubby ! :D

Age: Same as me :D

#2nd#

Name: Evan Yo

Aka: Hubby no. 2 (:

Age: 22

#3rd#

Name: Wang Dong Cheng Jiro

Aka: Idol ! :D

Age: 27

#4th#

Name: Afalean Lu Xue Wei

Aka: Idol

Age: Incredibly 20.

--------------------------------------

#5th#

-NO PICTURE :XX-

Name: My Little Retarded Boy

Age: Sweet 16

:D

& i Love Him Loads. (:

CIAOS.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEPS :DDD

BOOS. (:

hahas. Ben's at my house .Lol.

So sian. and like so damn hot. hurhurs.

Anyways, today cousin coming my house.

Its gonna be damn messy. And im gonna have a hell of a time -.-

so hahas. and like ben is damn quiet. LOL.

shy eh ? Hahas !

Anyways. yesterday was a blast.

But i spent most of my time playing the lappy so, Yeah.

hahas. Lol. So frigging bored luh.

Later mummy ask me do the stupid house work again.

Wondering whether to go Mr and Mrs chan's house to bai nian anot.

Hahas, hope he's there. :D Oopps.

And deshun is like " i want go your house bai nian."

Like. Lol. Daddy doesn't welcome guys, so yeahs.

Not that i don't want luh. Hahas, i can't.

Sorry guys ! :X

Yeah. Nothing to post about, Hahas.

I MISS YOU :DD

ciaos.

HELLO PEOPLE !
Its chinese new year.
And like hahas.
Received about 132 bucks on the first day itself :X
So frigging tired when i got home, so yeahs.
Went to Party world on tuesday,
So damn fun. Hurhurs ! :X
Im damn bored right now.
Nothing to do on the com, nothing. -.-
And yeahs.









IM MISSING YOU ! :DDD

Was in a super foul mood yesterday.
Yeah. Sisi knows what happened.
Was enjoying and destressing in Sembawang park,
during Zulaikah's bday party.
We reached there quite early.
And was in happy mood luh.
didn't really eat much.
And was quite hungry la.
Baka was like asking me to go home early,
when i thought i could stay with sisi until about 7pm or so.
To see the sunset.
But then she was like nagging and blah la.
kns. I was damn pissed off luhs.
I was telling her nicely okays.
Was so damn fugged up. No mood.
EMO la. I see no point of staying anyway.
Told Zulaikah sorry and went to Sun plaza to shop.
Valentines day ? Nahs -.-
Im craving for a knife right now.
Someone please stab me.
My life's a mess. And yeah. I don't know why.
Actually i shouldn't have came, shouldn't have attended.
Should have gave zulaikah her present and left.
Sorry zulaikah. T.T
Then saw hanafi, haikal, and jasiman at the Sembawang interchange.
Totally didn't see them until they called.
They could see i was in a bad mood.
And hell yeah. I was.
Just threw a weak smile and waved.
And thats about it .
And oh oh . Anyone wanna see" the eye " ?
Lol. Im craving for it ^^
Hahas. text me if u wanna see it yeah?

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to me,

but i meant nothing to him.

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It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else,

but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

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It's when you shed tears for him but still you care for him.

It's when he ignored you but you still long for him.

It's when he starts loving another,

and yet you manage a smile,

and find the courage to say

"I'm happy for you"

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when It's clear that you don't feel the same way for me

the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me,

I can't force myself to stop loving you.

:D

Littleretardedgirlsays:

从前的那些快乐

变了

变了没了

难道你真舍得

真舍不得

心呢 被弄痛了

承诺呢 被丢弃了

The first few days of the week was like :
EH. u cut hair ah !? ; Look like yusheng !
Gosh. Lol.
Anyways, getting busier and busier, and like so tired in lessons.
which god knows why.
And yeahs. My life's a wreck. Hahas.
So. Here i am.
Some ppl like showing attitude luhs.
For no apparent reason.

爱本来就该独一无二为

你伤心 多一点 少一点 流下的眼泪都一样不值得

Damn, anyways !

Later going to Zulaikah's bday party.
So. now slacking at home.
Hurhurs, yesterday's training was like.
Weird ? Don't know how to say la.
OH. two words.
NO COMMENTS.
bet some of you seh diao le. Lol :X

我想你真的爱 我但我也真的很痛
不然不会连亲吻都苦苦的.

ciaos.